Random Day Post

I don't know why. But I see couples loving each other in the morning and evening.. and then fighting over FB at night.. Is there something wrong?

Well, actually, I did not expect anything for Valentine (really). But the only thing I want is to eat chocolate from ppl who loves me. Friends also can give me. :P

Anyway, my sis gave me.. so I don't have much to complain about.

But the thing that is making me frustrated is the conversation we have (as usual).

I thought and decided not to forgive and forget about it. But I couldn't.
I thought I have hated. But I didn't, and I couldn't.
I thought I could control myself. But I couldn't.

I am not the one who give priority to my feelings. I use my brain and my head for my actions. For sure, I can't turn back. I know it by heart, know it from bottom, up .. all the times. But what the hell is wrong with me? Second thought? No wayyyy.

But I wish I could go back Myanmar this break if I didn't get IEP.
I wish my mum would allow me.
I wish someone wouldn't mind it.
I wish my father wouldn't mind it.
I wish, I wish..... I always wish the things that is difficult to become true.

UT3 ... IEP (or) PP .... FYP... Third Year... (A change in My life????)

Yep, the last day of Year 2 semester 2 is over now.. and I will have to go through the tough tough UT3..
Yes, I keep playing games and I am feeling very very lazy to do studying. But then, I know I will just have to worry about one module. :S :S

Intership matter is still not sure, while the school is near to close. I am worried whether I have to do PP in my third year. :(
If I don't have IEP, I would like to go back to Myanmar though I am a bit afriad of my father. But then, I also need to save money.. Arr, really a headache and stressful thing.

And FINAL YEAR PROJECT, the worst thing that has happened to me. It's really a nightmare. Yep, the project is also going for world competition. But I have never had enough confidence or ability for this kind of challenge. I am really really worried. Even if my future would be good, I am sure I will face a lot of difficulities, depressions and I will lost happiness too.
Don't think I want to leave my friends, I never had a thought of doing my FYPs with others. Things just happened, and I was left with no choice. Well, anyway, it was my fault overall. Now, I am stuck with this FYP thing where I am supposed to cooperate with the people I never know , besides the IT geeks. I just want to die...huu...

Well, I hope everything will be fine, I really really hope. And I will just keep trying my best.. yep.. trying my best... as I LIKE..................................

May the pains I suffer be paid of well when it's over.


FYI, My valentine event will be of no fun.. I think I can celebrate later. In fact, time really doesn't matter.


KHIN THUZAR THIN