Severus Snape

Recently Channel 5 aired Harry Potter series once a week and I was addicted to it again. But this time, I wanted more than watching movies so I chose reading books. Sadly, I cannot read all the books since my school is starting so I chose two favorites. Half Blood Prince and Deathly Hallows. This series never fails to attract me and I was again feeling very emotional by 'The Prince's Tale' chapter. I have read Deathly Hallows like four or five times. But it have never occurred to me to think and reflect for a big picture. Although I cry every time I read that chapter, it was only because I was deeply moved by Snape's unrequited love. But now, I see more.

Snape's story is pretty sad. Poor and problematic family, unpleasing appearance and his cold personality let people have bad impressions on him. In my opinion, he is normal except he likes to study Dark Magic. He likes Lily (Harry's mother) ever since they met and they have been good friends since then. However, he made unforgivable mistake on calling Lily, the person he loves so much,as 'Mudblood'. The price he had to pay for it was really huge. They turned into strangers and Lily didn't forgive (I can say more that she hated him). And once again, he unknowingly made the biggest mistake again by telling the prophecy to Lord Voldemort. He never knew what his actions might do so much harms on her. And the price this time is her death.
But there came the reason I admire him which is him getting back his senses. Many people may think it's easy to be a good person but it's not especially when you are already doing bad things. Snape became loyal to Dumbledore to protect Harry Potter. Why? The woman he loves died protecting her son and it was his fault. He put his determination, risked his life in doing so until his death. Where can we find this kind of love?
The part that make me feel moved is his conversation with Dumbledore.

“For him?” shouted Snape. “Expecto Patronum!”  From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
 “After all this time?”
 “Always,” said Snape.

While I feel sorry for Snape, I can't help realizing that it was his actions that made him suffer. And then I came to understand that sometimes the reason was me. As a selfish person I am, my pride and my greed often made me do things I wouldn't do usually. It wasn't the real me, but somehow somewhat it was me doing those. Deep inside I care so much, but I pretended like I don't give a damn. Deep inside I love you but I forced myself not to fall in love so deep. The reason I did things is because I don't want to get hurt and yet I ended up being hurt because of the things I did. In love, as Snape taught us, may be it's better to express your feelings on the spot. Never hesitate to show your affections and never let your pride cover your real intentions and feelings. Otherwise, you will lose the person you love most in this world.

           To Severus Snape - the hero of my fiction world, I will never never get over your unrequited love for Lily Evan. I don't know whether I can really love a person like that. From my personal experience, my pride won't allow me to do so. But still, I believe in that kind of love ...

KTZT

For You

I dreamt about you. Even in the dream, you were sad because of my actions again. It gave me so much pain to see you like that.

During this past three years, I have been lacking so much in treating you.
I received so much love (more than anyone in the world except my family has given to me), but I couldn't return equally.
I know I am selfish and only cared my feelings most. I tried my best, however things didn't always happen as I wanted to.
Family problems, depressions and confused feelings - it was beyond my capabilities to handle well.
Now that I let you go, I hope you to meet a girl better than me.
I can't keep this friendship, I can't keep this relationship. I have to stop my feelings for you, and yes I am trying to do so.

The most painful thing for a person is to think over the past memories with someone after parting. It'd be so selfish for me to ask you not to forget me, remember me and think about me.
If possible, just try to be selfish. Forget me. Forget all those memories. Please be happy and don't feel anything - sadness, guilty or regrets.

The best gift I can give to you will be to show me living well without you.
And for your request to not forget you, I won't forget your birthday, your kindness and some special little things about you.
However, I may forget about my feelings and memories about you and about us.
They may be disapperared from my memory and heart - like snowflakes .. like sands carried by the wind.

After the storm, there is always a sunshine. May the sun shine on you brightly after all these struggles.

Random xxxxx

Had a little fight with my sis while preparing for dinner. Drove me so mad and I just slept and skipped dinner. It ended up she not cooking dinner and ate anyhow, me sleeping till 12am and woke up. Great! Who asked you to keep blaming me for everything???  Who asked you to assume that those are the things I should definitely do. Please have a little cooperation !! I'd rather live alone than having my mood spoiled everyday by you. Garrrrrrr

And days pass really slow when I am waiting for great events. Counting down .. 24 more days . =)
I hope to see you so much. I really hope we can reunite this time. Not only with you, I just wish me, theint, wityi, poe thar and you can meet again like those old days and hang out. How can you all change so much and dislike each other when we all used to be good friends? You all won't know but those days we studied, played around and had meals together in just a short time of three months -- were the happiest moments of my life. We got up early on weekends for study, we fought crazily while sharing food and we laughed with the same heart together. Does our friendship still exist or it stopped since October 2008, the last time we hanged out together.

I seems to live in the past. I don't hate the present me, but I just wish I can still keep things like it used to be in the past. But in reality, it is harder than I thought.

Anyway, you all are friends for me forever.

Christmas and New Year Memories

I know it's too late to write, but anyway I want to record the special memories of this Christmas and New Year.

Well, nothing so special on this Christmas. I met with Theint Theint, went shopping and had a great time with her. She seems to like here - the clean place, the sense of freedom (without a need to care other ppl's looks) and other things. But the funny thing is she always converts S$ to MM kyats and doesn't want to buy things. She is the type to buy a lot when we go shopping. The high prices might shock her. :D  We just went to Bugis and then came back around 5pm.

The next good event was going to USS with my brother, Theint and sis KP. Special thanks to my brother to accompany us and being nice to my friend even though he just got to know her. I really want social skills like him. The experience is really great, especially the rides. Transformer ride is the new coolest ride to try. Even though the queue was terribly long, the joys we had covered it up. But next time, I will make sure to buy express tickets, or may be arrange to go on weekdays.

Needless to say, my New Year Night was fun filled! The first time to celebrate New Year with friends and had fun. In Yangon, I was always at home and just did countdown with family. In the last three years, I was also at my sister's house and watched fireworks. This time really is the best countdown moment I have ever did. Karaoke with friends before Countdown, me and sis KP really had a great time shouting our heart out with best songs. :D (My singing skill really sucks! >_<)  . The large crowd leading to Countdown area is really no joke. We had to stop several times and kept moving to reach there. It was worth it anyway... The fireworks with music background was fantastic - the best I can ask for.When would be the next time we can ever have this kinda event and fun together? Seeing those firework, my mind feel really pleasant.  ^_^   I called my parents afterward, passing Myanmar New Year time with them on the air. :)

December - you have been really good to me this year. Thanks for all the good memories.

And 2013 , welcome you from the bottom of my heart. I have many plans to do in 2013. I hope everything turns out well, and I hope I can stay strong and overcome all the difficulties too. Happy New Year!

The most important things in your life

What's the most important thing in your life?

Family? Education? Money? Lover?

Well, whatever it is.. have you gotten that most important thing with you and besides you.. always.
Or have you already lost it - forever?

I think about it and I have three important things in my life currently.. Family, Education and Love.
Although it can't be said I lost my family, I somehow foolishly want back our old family .. the family dinner, after dinner drama time, the small little quarrels or jokes we had.. I miss them all. It's nearly impossible to have those kinds of gatherings currently..  Well may be someday.. if I could ,I will try to gather for family dinner again.

And to talk about 'Education', I am in the middle of the road to fully have it. I will wait patiently for the day when I can proudly stand on my feet, support my family and do communities work. That's my dream and I hope I won't get lazy as I am now. I hope I will get more mature and do work better and harder than now.

Love.... the love I believed is just simply love. Feeling happy when you see him, want to have fun with him together, sharing each other lives, having the same feeling, wanting to do anything for him and missing him so much if you don't hear from him for days. He is always in your morning and night thoughts. He is your morning coffee, the breeze touching your face softly and the melody you enjoy listening. I believe that it is love. But in reality, love... is so complicated. The love I received, the love I can't stop giving and the love I wanted so much to be real but turned out it was just my own illusion. It becomes so complicated and tiring that I think I might go crazy. So, I am just accepting the things that happened positively. Though it is sad & lonely, at least the burden I felt disappeared and I think it is the best possible way..

Family, Education, Love ..... yes, they are the most important things in my life. 

Some thoughts

I am so emo today. I can't control myself thinking so much and can't focus on coding. So frustrating.
May be side affect of the drama .. @_@

Do you believe 'fate', 'eternal love' and 'reincarnation'? I really want to know what is my fate .. what kind of person I will be in future, who I am supposed to spend my life together with.. those kind of things. I believe love isn't something we can make and control. All the feelings and love to someone else is because of fate. If we aren't fated, we won't even be meeting, not to say to be close and love each other. So I think for someone to be in your mind all the times, isn't a simple kind of playful love, but a fated love ... be the consequences bad or good.

Well just a piece of thought after watching 'Rooftop Prince'. The drama isn't very realistic (time travel and mostly imaginative) but well entertaining and funny. Just watch for fun.The nickname of this drama is too funny "Joseon Power Rangers" XD

Another drama I watched last week is 'Sungkyunkwan Scandal'. This one again (though a little bit realistic) , I wish the actress is not too beautiful. One of the thing I like about korea drama is the lines of characters. In this drama, some lines about education and society are remarkable.

Watching movies and going work is the only things I do these days.. Is life becoming meaningless more and more? Sigh~~~

And the new song lingering in my ears is an OST from Rooftop Prince..

No idea why I write this

Around two or three days ago, I saw a guy wearing a very nice Swatch and I was dreaming about buying it and giving present to him after I get the job. Well, now it seems like a really stupid idea.

I don't accept what others said that he is asking for break up because of depressions. I really find it as a lame excuse. Who haven't been in depression, who haven't been suffering a lot? I have suffered from depression of not getting job for five months. My sister got into big accident with police case and I had to go to hospital to take care of my nephew for around three weeks. My work pass application has been rejected for several times. What has been worser than this in my life? I don't want to make complaints and I didn't announce anything of it to my friends or relatives or anyone.

The point I want to say is that no matter how things get tired, I never mentioned about break up. I am afraid of getting hurt  and hurting people who I love. I know exactly how it feels after sudden break up and regretting it later. If I don't really care and love him, I would have said goodbye since a long time ago when my ex-boyfriend asked me to love him back. Well, I didn't accept his request and I never will. I have been hurt so so much with deep scars by him. Even though I love him to death, I can never trust him again, also will be afraid of getting betrayed and being left behind. I really hate that feeling... it just brings me to tears whenever I think about it.

So I promise myself that I won't do that to the people who I love. And I did try my best to keep relationship with him no matter how much I feel tired and frustrated with my complicated feelings. I know I always find troubles to him, starting fights , but in the end did I make those troubles too big and start big quarrels with him.. "NO, and Never". However I think the times that we being apart and our tired mind make us feel more and more far away from each other.

Anyway.. it's his decision that I have to respect and accept. I would cry, would feel angry and sorry but I don't want to hold someone who doesn't care about my feelings. Some said he might be pretending and wants to hold me back .. he might feel confused cuz of his trouble.. But 'breaking up' is the level that I can't hold on and take it easy. It involves hurting my pride and feelings; and damaging people opinions of me.

Since the day he wrote "I don't want to love anymore", I knew and expect this to happen soon, I even wrote my thoughts about it in diary.  However , I kept comforting myself that it won't happen and trusted him. But well trust is broken now. So I really have nothing to say - "NOTHING! NOTHING MORE".

~~~~ Recently ~~~~

I have been so busy these days, trying to do my best for temporary work even though I only have 50% hope to get hired and get S Pass/Work Permit Approval in that company. In any case, what I am doing now at this job is not wasting my time and I got to upgrade my skills and also do revision of my web development knowledge.

They only asked me to do simple web-server based application, that could easily be done with the basic things I have learnt from school. However, I want to challenge myself and I am trying to learn Jquery and Ajax and applying to my application as possible as I can. And by doing the project alone by myself, I really feel that development frameworks and editing tools are really necessary to make the process faster. In application development, we have to take care of many things - from UI design, the performance (speed, usability, accessibility, etc) and the server/storage side. With framework, many things will be handled along with some customizatons. I really need to learn to work with that as I am currently just doing every page from scartch and I have a long way to go from design to data validation and sql handle events.  :(

I really hope that I can get this job. Though salary is not high as my friends and the company is small, I think I can learn many things in this environment. But well, I can just pray hard since MOM approvals are so hard to get and difficult to apply. Fighting to myself and Good Luck to myself! :)

And on top of my top, I am so addited to these two variety shows - 2 Days 1 Night , Strong Heart and also following my favourite actor,singer and MC Lee Seung Gi News. Need more than 24 hours a day seriously!

Well, I will present you a very nice song  and end the post now. Be Happy and Smile! =)

The best ever Friday 13 For Myanmar

Today is really one of the best day of my life, and can also be said one of the happiest day for Myanmar Citizens. :)

Majority of myanmar Political Prisoners has been freed by the new Government. Though I don't know much of them, there are few persons that I really respect such as U Khin Nyunt, Ko Nay Phone Latt, Ko Min Ko Naing, Ma Su Su Nwe and some I cannot remember the name. I almost cried when I heard this news because I was too happy. 

But honestly, I still don't have much faith in the new Government as majority are comprised of military people, especially U Thein Sein. I welcome their changing behaviours and the good deeds they are doing to bring up the country image, but I am also expecting the worst. But if all these changes are really real good intentions made by them, then I wish the best for their future and Myanmar Future.

Well, though I am not a political person, I just want to say "Thank you, President U Thein Sein for your kindness to free imprisoned politicians and give us hope to see Myanmar shining  amongst all other countries" :) 

ဘာရယ္မဟုတ္ညာရယ္မဟုတ္

New Post ေရးခ်င္စိတ္တာရွိတာ၊ တကယ္ေတာ့ ဘာမွ ေရးစရာမရွိ။ စိတ္ထဲရွိတာေတြ ခ်ေရးရရင္ အကုန္လုံး ဝမ္းနည္းစရာေတြပဲေနလိမ့္မယ္။

ဒီတစ္ေလာ လူကမွုိင္ခ်င္တယ္။ ရန္ကုန္ျပန္ရမွာ.ေပ်ာ္လည္း ေပ်ာ္တယ္။ ေၾကာက္လည္း ေၾကာက္မိတယ္။ ေဝးသြားလို႔ ေမ့ထားခဲ့တဲ့အရာေတြ. ျပန္ေပၚလာမွာေၾကာက္တယ္။ ျပီးေတာ့ သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြနဲ႔ အဆင္မေျပမွာလည္း ေၾကာက္တယ္။ တစ္မ်ိဴးၾကီးပဲ။

အခ်ိန္ေတြကကုန္ျမန္တယ္။ လုပ္စရာေတြကလည္း တစ္ပံုၾကီး။ ျပီး ဘာမွလည္း မလုပ္ျဖစ္ျပန္ဘူး။ ဒီလိုနဲ႔ ရန္ကုန္ကေရာက္ဦးမယ္။ :(

ေဒါသလည္း ထြက္ျမန္တယ္။ ငိုလည္း ငိုလြယ္တယ္။ အားငယ္စိတ္ေတြလည္း အျမဲဝင္ေနတယ္။ စိတ္ဆိုးရင္.. ဝမ္းနည္းလာတယ္။ တကယ္ စိတ္ဆိုးခံရတဲ့သူက ဘာမွ မျဖစ္ပါဘူး.. စိတ္ဆိုးတဲ့သူက ျပန္ငိုေနရတယ္..ေလာကၾကီးက မတရားလိုက္တာ။

ဘာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ ျဖစ္ခ်င္တာေတြ ျဖစ္လာမယ့္အခ်ိန္..ေပ်ာ္စရာေတြၾကံဳရမယ့္ အခ်ိန္ေတြေရာက္ေတာ့မယ္။။... ဒါေပမယ့္. မျဖစ္သင့္တာေတြ မျဖစ္ပါေစနဲ႔ဆိုတာေတာ့ ေန႔တုိင္း ဆုေတာင္းေနရဦးမယ္..... :(

Random Feelings

I am starting to hate weekends. I notice that my mind is really going crazy every weekend. I hate doing chores, I hate the feeling that I have no one to talk, no one besides me. Though I love silence moments during holidays, I don't want to be alone. This really make me miss my home and friends in Yangon. Even though I had nothing to do in Yangon, I never feel so lonely as I always go to my friend's house or I have my mother accompanying me and always cook the food I asked randomly. T_T.. I am really feeling home sick.

And I think weekends are rushing days for someone and I hate that. The timing is really bad for us. I am always rushing on weekdays, and he, on weekend. What am I supposed to accept and handle it? This kind of situation really can make relationship so cold, I know it by my heart.. and I can't help but feel really sad for it. Well, hope I could endure it, hope I would be strong enough not to give up.

I am thinking about a person who always tell jokes and make me happy when we are together. It's hard to forget the words, and I hope I could hear those jokes again. There is a saying from that person that I cannot forget
       "စိတ္ဆိုးေအာင္လုပ္ႏုိင္ပါတယ္။ စိတ္နာေအာင္ မလုပ္ပါနဲ႔".


I am really sorry if I have ever made you feel hurt, my beloved ones..

Happy Father Day

အေဖမ်ားေန႔တဲ့..
တစ္ခါမွေတာ့ မၾကားဖူးဘူး။ ဒီႏွစ္ သူမ်ား Invite လုပ္ေတာ့မွသိတယ္။ :)

ခုတစ္ေလာ ပါးပါးကို သတိရပါတယ္။ပါးပါးရဲ ႔ ဆူသံ၊ ေနာက္ကေလလိုက္ျပီး လုပ္သမွ် ပြစိပြစိေျပာတဲ့အသံေလးကို လြမ္းေတာ့ လြမ္းမိသား။ :D ဘာပစၥည္းဝယ္ဝယ္ ပိုက္ဆံျဖဳန္းတယ္ဆိုျပီး ေျပာလြန္းလို႔ ေနာက္ပိုင္း ပစၥည္းဝယ္ေလ့အက်င့္မရွိေတာ့တဲ့အထိ ျဖစ္ေအာင္ ျပဳစုပ်ိဳးေထာင္ေပးခဲ့တဲ့ အေဖ။ ဟိဟိ...

မွတ္မိေသးတယ္။ ငယ္ငယ္တုန္းက တရုတ္စာ စသင္ခ်ိန္ စာစေရးတတ္တုန္းက စစခ်င္း ေရးတဲ့စာေၾကာင္းက
 ေဝါအိုက္နီ, ပါ့ပါ ။ ေဝါအိုက္နီ, မာ့မာ ( 我爱你，爸爸. 我爱你，妈妈 )  :)  ကေလးတုိင္းလုိလိုေတာ့ အဲလိုေရးခဲ့ဖူးမယ္ ထင္တာပဲ။ လူသားအားလံုး ကိုယ့္မိဘေတြကို ခ်စ္တတ္ပါတယ္။:)
ကဲ.. ဒီႏွစ္ေတာ့ အေဖမ်ားေန႔ကို ဆင္ႏြဲပါမယ္။ အေဝးတစ္ေနရာမွာရွိတဲ့ ခ်စ္ရေသာ ပါးပါး က်န္းမာေရးေကာင္းပါေစ။ စိတ္အျမဲခ်မ္းသာပါေစ။ စိတ္ထဲကေနပဲ ရွိခုိးလိုက္ပါတယ္ ပါးပါး။ :)

                                   My celebration of Father Day  :) 

ကမာၻေပၚမွာ ရွိၾကတဲ့ အေဖအားလံုး 20 June မွာ ေပ်ာ္ရြင္ၾကပါေစ။ :)

                                                                              
Khin Thuzar Thin

Tired

I am really tired of this.. Actually , I hate myself most. Only if I was not stubborn and could control myself more, I would not be feeling like now.. My mind is really complicated now, and I am forbidding myself currently, being afraid that I would be doing mistakes and hurting people again and again.. No people can understand it.
So far I have walked through this path , I had many confusions and depressions, and I always doubt myself whether I could make up myself and face all the problems. And I am currently doubting myself again...
However , since the day I held your hand, it is not possible to turn back. Thinking I would lose You, I found losing myself,and there is no me in that imagination.. It is really difficult to turn back....

I want some strength .. I need some motivation and supports. But why are you not the one who is giving me strength ? Recently, why are you so down? and why I had to show and pretend like I am ok? Why? why?

Actually, I am so down down more than you...

The fact that you should know

When I say "let me be alone" , it does not mean " you have to go away from me" . I just requesting you to be silent and just be there where you are , either you are besides me or you are online. I realy do not know what to say and what to do when I am really down. So just please be with me and silent. That's all I need.

Random

A lot of things happened since the school started. I haven't been able to concentrate to make a new post.. Actually, there is nothing to say.  Happy memories always come with a bit sad missing feeling and stupid intuitions made me worry for little things , So, I am feeling complicated.. and I think time pass so fast during these days..

Well, I will turn to 18 after 2 days from now.. Thinking about my birthday, I feel nostalgia again, remembering my childhood birthdays. I remembered the birthday cake my father bought once for my birthday. It was my first and last birthday celebration with all family members.. (@_@ Family gathering.. =.=)  I remember the video of me playing around everywhere .. taken by my father and brother. I wanna watch that again. :) 

I have also read one post by someone.. Reading her words is like looking me at the mirror. I see the reflections of me through it. Her feelings are same with me, yes.. relating to first love. I think most of girls will have it in common. Sadly, I can't do anything for her.. Can I even be friends with her ( with someone's acknowledgement) ? .. I don't know. But she is only suffering for one year. I hope time will cure , like I have no feelings at all about the end story now.... Memories can't be erased, but feelings can be thrown away. I think so, and I believe so..    

" Hope someone will be happy sooner, and feel like she is the happiest person in the wold. "

Just a random post.. Hope you all don't mind it..  :)

သၾကၤန္~~ သၾကၤန္~~

သၾကၤန္ကေတာ့ ျပီးသြားျပီ။ ဘာမွ မထူးျခားသလိုပဲ။ ၃ႏွစ္ေတာင္ရွိျပီေပါ့ မေပ်ာ္ရတာ။ ဒီႏွစ္.. ဒုတိယႏွစ္စတက္တယ္။ အလုပ္နဲ႔ ေက်ာင္းနဲ႔ ျပန္ျဖစ္သြားျပီ ^_^.. ဒါေပမယ့္ စိတ္ကရန္ကုန္ကိုပဲ ေရာက္ေနတယ္။
သၾကၤန္မွာ.. ဘာလုပ္သလဲဆိုေတာ့ ငယ္ငယ္တုန္းကေတာ့သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြနဲ႔ ရပ္ကြက္ ပတ္္တယ္.. လမ္းတကာေလွ်ာက္သြားတယ္။ ခြက္ေစာင္းရွိတဲ့လမ္းေတြဆို ေရွာင္တယ္။ ျပီးရင္ အိမ္နားက စုေပါင္းေရပတ္တဲ့ေနရာမွာ ေရပက္တယ္ (အိမ္ကေရခြက္ေတြလည္း အျမဲေပ်ာက္တယ္ ေမာင္ႏွမေတြ ေဆာ့ခ်က္ :D )။ နားခ်ိန္မွာ..အိမ္နီးခ်င္းေတြလာပို႔တဲ့.ေရႊရင္ေအး..မုန္႔လက္ေဆာင္း.(မုန္႔လံုးေရေပၚမွ အပ.:D) စားတယ္။ ညဘက္ဆို ကာတြန္းစာအုပ္ေတြငွားတယ္။ မ႑ပ္ထုိင္ ေရကစားတဲ့
အေလ့အထေတာ့ မရွိဘူး။ အိမ္က မန္းနီးမေပးတာက အဓိကတရားခံ. ေနပူမခံႏိုင္တာက တစ္ခ်က္။ ဒီႏွစ္ျဖစ္ခဲ့တဲ့အေျခအေနေပၚမူတည္ရင္ေတာ့ အဲဒီမ႑ပ္မထုိင္တာကပဲ ေကာင္းတယ္လို႔ ေျပာရမလား
မသိ.. :S
သတိရမိတာက လမ္းအခ်င္းခ်င္းျဖစ္တဲ့ သၾကၤန္ရန္ျဖစ္ပြဲေလးပါ။ ရပ္ကြက္မွာသုခုမလမ္းဆိုတဲ့ လမ္းရွည္ရွိတယ္။ အဲဒီလမ္းကိုမွ အပုိင္းျခားေလးေတြ လုပ္ျပီး ေတာင္ပုိင္းေျမာက္ပိုင္းလား.ခြဲထားတယ္။ အဲေတာ့ တျခားလမ္းကသူေတြ ကုိယ့္လမ္းလာရင္ ခြက္ေစာင္းခုတ္ေရာ။ေနာက္ကေလးေတြေပါင္းျပီး စတီးျပြတ္ကိုင္၊ ေရဗံုးကို လြယ္အိတ္နဲ႔သယ္ ျပီးေတာ့ တျခားလမ္းကိုခ်ီတက္..အဲကအဖြဲ႔ေတြနဲ႔ အျပိဳင္ဖိုက္. :D ။ ေတာ္ေတာ္ေလးေတာ့ ေပ်ာ္ဖို႔ေကာင္းပါတယ္.. ရန္ျဖစ္ခ်င္တဲ့စိတ္ေတာ့မဟုတ္ဘူး..အေပ်ာ္သေဘာ။ ေနာက္သၾကၤန္ျပီးရင္ ျပန္တည့္သြားျပန္ေရာ။ အဲဒီကေန လမ္းသူလမ္းသားခ်င္း စုေပါင္းတဲ့စိတ္ဓာတ္ဆိုတာ ျဖစ္လာတယ္။ သူငယ္ခ်င္းေနတဲ့လမ္းျဖစ္ေပမယ့္ အျမဲသြားလည္ေနၾက ကၽြန္မေတာင္ သူတို႔ကို ခင္ပါတယ္။ ပြဲေတာ္တုိင္းမွာ စည္တာကုိး... ခုေတာ့မသိေတာ့ဘူး.. လြန္ခဲ့တဲ့ ၅ႏွစ္က ကေလးေတြက..ခုေတာ့ လူပ်ိဳေတြ အပ်ိဳေတြျဖစ္လာျပီေလ.. အဲလိုဘယ္ေဆာ့ၾကေတာ့မလဲ.. :D
     မလည္ရတဲ့ သၾကၤန္သံုးႏွစ္ကို ႏွေျမာလိုက္တာ၊ဆယ္တန္းျပီးသြားေတာ့ အေမက ကုသိုလ္ယူရမယ္ဆိုျပီး သီလရွင္သၾကၤန္တြင္း ဝတ္ခုိင္းတယ္။ အဲဒီႏွစ္္ျပီးေတာ့့ ဒီကုိပို႔တယ္။ ဒီႏွစ္က်ေတာ့ အိမ္မျပန္လာနဲ႔တဲ့.. >.< ေနာက္ႏွစ္ဆိုရင္ ဘာအေၾကာင္းျပခ်က္ေပးဦးမလဲ မသိဘူး... :(

ေလာေလာဆယ္ သၾကၤန္ပိုးကေတာ့ေသသြားျပီ.. ထပ္ထလာမယ့္ပိုးကေတာ့??     ^_^

Let me share my only one Thingyan photo of 2008

 Can you find little "Nun" Khin Thuzar Thin??? .. :D

သုိ႔/ အေမ

အေမ

အေမ့သမီး အေတာင္စံုမေပါက္ေသးပဲ

တစ္ေယာက္တည္း ခရီးသြားရတာ..

ေမာ.. ေမာပန္းလွပါျပီ။

အေမ

အေမ့ေမတၱာ အေဖ့ေမတၱာေတြ

မျဖန့္ၾကဲႏိုင္တဲ့ ဟိုအေဝးကေနရာေတြဟာ

တကယ့္...ကႏာၱရေတြလိုပါပဲ။

အေမ

အေမ့သမီးေတာ့ ေရငတ္ေနပါျပီ။

ဒါေပမယ့္.. အဲဒီငတ္မြတ္မွဳက

အခါးဓာတ္ေတြပါ တစိမ့္စိမ့္ ထုတ္ေနတယ္ဆိုတာ

အေမ.. အေမေတာ့ မသိေလာက္ပါဘူး။

ဘာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ေပါ့ အေမရယ္

တစ္ေန႔မွာ.....

ေနာင္လာမယ့္တစ္ခ်ိန္မွာ

သမီး အေမအေဖရဲ႔ အရိပ္ေအာက္မွာေနရင္း

ဆန္ေရေလး စီးခြင့္ရမယ့္အခ်ိန္ေလး

ေတြးဆ.. အားတင္းထားလ်က္ပါ။

(ခင္သူဇာသင္း)

P.S: I won't accept Negative Comments!!

Random

I am hating myself for unnecessary feelings..
That disease is growing more...
There is no one to be blamed, neither Me or That Person
However, I can't help but feel sorry for myself..
Yes, now April came
From now on and after 41 days, there will be my Birthday
Inside my mind, a desire that has grown since long years ago still alive..( Who will not want to be happy with xxxxxx on his/her birthday???? )
But I know... , and I understand the light of hope for this desire is fading and dying in this year.......
Will someone blame me for writing this?????????????
I am ready for all the wxxds..

~~Today? 27? What's it?~~

Guess what's 27 March?
Is there anything special on the earth on 27th March????
Yes, there is!

It may not be special for everyone...
But in my mind, whenever thinking of March 27, I feel the braveness. Feel thrilled and wonder by the braveness of Myanmar.
On this day, with the lead of our General Bogyoke Aung San, Myanmar was able to show their braveness through the world...
Think through~~ Could the big China be able to fight all the Japanese from their land??
No, isn't it?
But Myanmar did! :) I don't care whatever help they got for this.
The most important thing is - on this day, we knew the union of all races_ for fighting Japan which treated our people badly..
This day is a proof of our general leadership, and a proof of Myanmar Army united by brave boys of Myanmar..
Yes, today is The Armed Force Day Of Myanmar, March 27.

It's the past, but never old and will not die _ in the memories of Myanmar People who knows their history.


And I am wondering_ "Will our young generation, the children of Myanmar currently be still able to know those????"
I dare not to see the future....

My Feeling

There is a boy in the earth
He cares me since I was young
He loves me and I love him, too
I remember the time when he used to accompany me to go back home on his bicycle..
It has been such a long time.. May be 10 years ago..
When I was young, we slept together
When the weather was cold, his warm arms were the greatest blanket for me

After one year from now on, he may become "a man" in society
If things are getting better, I would be staying with him
I can help him by doing household things, cooking for him, etc....
May be I can feel the feelings back.. the feelings that is lacking within my mind since 5 years ago..
Hope happy times will come together with my beloved person..
My Brother~~~ Is Going to Graduate after one year~~ ^_^
And Now I only have hopes of living with him together
:)
This letter is dedicated to you, My Brother