Snape's story is pretty sad. Poor and problematic family, unpleasing appearance and his cold personality let people have bad impressions on him. In my opinion, he is normal except he likes to study Dark Magic. He likes Lily (Harry's mother) ever since they met and they have been good friends since then. However, he made unforgivable mistake on calling Lily, the person he loves so much,as 'Mudblood'. The price he had to pay for it was really huge. They turned into strangers and Lily didn't forgive (I can say more that she hated him). And once again, he unknowingly made the biggest mistake again by telling the prophecy to Lord Voldemort. He never knew what his actions might do so much harms on her. And the price this time is her death.
But there came the reason I admire him which is him getting back his senses. Many people may think it's easy to be a good person but it's not especially when you are already doing bad things. Snape became loyal to Dumbledore to protect Harry Potter. Why? The woman he loves died protecting her son and it was his fault. He put his determination, risked his life in doing so until his death. Where can we find this kind of love?
The part that make me feel moved is his conversation with Dumbledore.
“For him?” shouted Snape. “Expecto Patronum!” From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
“After all this time?”
“Always,” said Snape.
While I feel sorry for Snape, I can't help realizing that it was his actions that made him suffer. And then I came to understand that sometimes the reason was me. As a selfish person I am, my pride and my greed often made me do things I wouldn't do usually. It wasn't the real me, but somehow somewhat it was me doing those. Deep inside I care so much, but I pretended like I don't give a damn. Deep inside I love you but I forced myself not to fall in love so deep. The reason I did things is because I don't want to get hurt and yet I ended up being hurt because of the things I did. In love, as Snape taught us, may be it's better to express your feelings on the spot. Never hesitate to show your affections and never let your pride cover your real intentions and feelings. Otherwise, you will lose the person you love most in this world.
To Severus Snape - the hero of my fiction world, I will never never get over your unrequited love for Lily Evan. I don't know whether I can really love a person like that. From my personal experience, my pride won't allow me to do so. But still, I believe in that kind of love ...
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