Severus Snape

Recently Channel 5 aired Harry Potter series once a week and I was addicted to it again. But this time, I wanted more than watching movies so I chose reading books. Sadly, I cannot read all the books since my school is starting so I chose two favorites. Half Blood Prince and Deathly Hallows. This series never fails to attract me and I was again feeling very emotional by 'The Prince's Tale' chapter. I have read Deathly Hallows like four or five times. But it have never occurred to me to think and reflect for a big picture. Although I cry every time I read that chapter, it was only because I was deeply moved by Snape's unrequited love. But now, I see more.

Snape's story is pretty sad. Poor and problematic family, unpleasing appearance and his cold personality let people have bad impressions on him. In my opinion, he is normal except he likes to study Dark Magic. He likes Lily (Harry's mother) ever since they met and they have been good friends since then. However, he made unforgivable mistake on calling Lily, the person he loves so much,as 'Mudblood'. The price he had to pay for it was really huge. They turned into strangers and Lily didn't forgive (I can say more that she hated him). And once again, he unknowingly made the biggest mistake again by telling the prophecy to Lord Voldemort. He never knew what his actions might do so much harms on her. And the price this time is her death.
But there came the reason I admire him which is him getting back his senses. Many people may think it's easy to be a good person but it's not especially when you are already doing bad things. Snape became loyal to Dumbledore to protect Harry Potter. Why? The woman he loves died protecting her son and it was his fault. He put his determination, risked his life in doing so until his death. Where can we find this kind of love?
The part that make me feel moved is his conversation with Dumbledore.

“For him?” shouted Snape. “Expecto Patronum!”  From the tip of his wand burst the silver doe. She landed on the office floor, bounded once across the office, and soared out of the window. Dumbledore watched her fly away, and as her silvery glow faded he turned back to Snape, and his eyes were full of tears.
 “After all this time?”
 “Always,” said Snape.

While I feel sorry for Snape, I can't help realizing that it was his actions that made him suffer. And then I came to understand that sometimes the reason was me. As a selfish person I am, my pride and my greed often made me do things I wouldn't do usually. It wasn't the real me, but somehow somewhat it was me doing those. Deep inside I care so much, but I pretended like I don't give a damn. Deep inside I love you but I forced myself not to fall in love so deep. The reason I did things is because I don't want to get hurt and yet I ended up being hurt because of the things I did. In love, as Snape taught us, may be it's better to express your feelings on the spot. Never hesitate to show your affections and never let your pride cover your real intentions and feelings. Otherwise, you will lose the person you love most in this world.

           To Severus Snape - the hero of my fiction world, I will never never get over your unrequited love for Lily Evan. I don't know whether I can really love a person like that. From my personal experience, my pride won't allow me to do so. But still, I believe in that kind of love ...

KTZT

For You

I dreamt about you. Even in the dream, you were sad because of my actions again. It gave me so much pain to see you like that.

During this past three years, I have been lacking so much in treating you.
I received so much love (more than anyone in the world except my family has given to me), but I couldn't return equally.
I know I am selfish and only cared my feelings most. I tried my best, however things didn't always happen as I wanted to.
Family problems, depressions and confused feelings - it was beyond my capabilities to handle well.
Now that I let you go, I hope you to meet a girl better than me.
I can't keep this friendship, I can't keep this relationship. I have to stop my feelings for you, and yes I am trying to do so.

The most painful thing for a person is to think over the past memories with someone after parting. It'd be so selfish for me to ask you not to forget me, remember me and think about me.
If possible, just try to be selfish. Forget me. Forget all those memories. Please be happy and don't feel anything - sadness, guilty or regrets.

The best gift I can give to you will be to show me living well without you.
And for your request to not forget you, I won't forget your birthday, your kindness and some special little things about you.
However, I may forget about my feelings and memories about you and about us.
They may be disapperared from my memory and heart - like snowflakes .. like sands carried by the wind.

After the storm, there is always a sunshine. May the sun shine on you brightly after all these struggles.

Random xxxxx

Had a little fight with my sis while preparing for dinner. Drove me so mad and I just slept and skipped dinner. It ended up she not cooking dinner and ate anyhow, me sleeping till 12am and woke up. Great! Who asked you to keep blaming me for everything???  Who asked you to assume that those are the things I should definitely do. Please have a little cooperation !! I'd rather live alone than having my mood spoiled everyday by you. Garrrrrrr

And days pass really slow when I am waiting for great events. Counting down .. 24 more days . =)
I hope to see you so much. I really hope we can reunite this time. Not only with you, I just wish me, theint, wityi, poe thar and you can meet again like those old days and hang out. How can you all change so much and dislike each other when we all used to be good friends? You all won't know but those days we studied, played around and had meals together in just a short time of three months -- were the happiest moments of my life. We got up early on weekends for study, we fought crazily while sharing food and we laughed with the same heart together. Does our friendship still exist or it stopped since October 2008, the last time we hanged out together.

I seems to live in the past. I don't hate the present me, but I just wish I can still keep things like it used to be in the past. But in reality, it is harder than I thought.

Anyway, you all are friends for me forever.

The most important things in your life

What's the most important thing in your life?

Family? Education? Money? Lover?

Well, whatever it is.. have you gotten that most important thing with you and besides you.. always.
Or have you already lost it - forever?

I think about it and I have three important things in my life currently.. Family, Education and Love.
Although it can't be said I lost my family, I somehow foolishly want back our old family .. the family dinner, after dinner drama time, the small little quarrels or jokes we had.. I miss them all. It's nearly impossible to have those kinds of gatherings currently..  Well may be someday.. if I could ,I will try to gather for family dinner again.

And to talk about 'Education', I am in the middle of the road to fully have it. I will wait patiently for the day when I can proudly stand on my feet, support my family and do communities work. That's my dream and I hope I won't get lazy as I am now. I hope I will get more mature and do work better and harder than now.

Love.... the love I believed is just simply love. Feeling happy when you see him, want to have fun with him together, sharing each other lives, having the same feeling, wanting to do anything for him and missing him so much if you don't hear from him for days. He is always in your morning and night thoughts. He is your morning coffee, the breeze touching your face softly and the melody you enjoy listening. I believe that it is love. But in reality, love... is so complicated. The love I received, the love I can't stop giving and the love I wanted so much to be real but turned out it was just my own illusion. It becomes so complicated and tiring that I think I might go crazy. So, I am just accepting the things that happened positively. Though it is sad & lonely, at least the burden I felt disappeared and I think it is the best possible way..

Family, Education, Love ..... yes, they are the most important things in my life. 

Some thoughts

I am so emo today. I can't control myself thinking so much and can't focus on coding. So frustrating.
May be side affect of the drama .. @_@

Do you believe 'fate', 'eternal love' and 'reincarnation'? I really want to know what is my fate .. what kind of person I will be in future, who I am supposed to spend my life together with.. those kind of things. I believe love isn't something we can make and control. All the feelings and love to someone else is because of fate. If we aren't fated, we won't even be meeting, not to say to be close and love each other. So I think for someone to be in your mind all the times, isn't a simple kind of playful love, but a fated love ... be the consequences bad or good.

Well just a piece of thought after watching 'Rooftop Prince'. The drama isn't very realistic (time travel and mostly imaginative) but well entertaining and funny. Just watch for fun.The nickname of this drama is too funny "Joseon Power Rangers" XD

Another drama I watched last week is 'Sungkyunkwan Scandal'. This one again (though a little bit realistic) , I wish the actress is not too beautiful. One of the thing I like about korea drama is the lines of characters. In this drama, some lines about education and society are remarkable.

Watching movies and going work is the only things I do these days.. Is life becoming meaningless more and more? Sigh~~~

And the new song lingering in my ears is an OST from Rooftop Prince..

Random Feelings

I am starting to hate weekends. I notice that my mind is really going crazy every weekend. I hate doing chores, I hate the feeling that I have no one to talk, no one besides me. Though I love silence moments during holidays, I don't want to be alone. This really make me miss my home and friends in Yangon. Even though I had nothing to do in Yangon, I never feel so lonely as I always go to my friend's house or I have my mother accompanying me and always cook the food I asked randomly. T_T.. I am really feeling home sick.

And I think weekends are rushing days for someone and I hate that. The timing is really bad for us. I am always rushing on weekdays, and he, on weekend. What am I supposed to accept and handle it? This kind of situation really can make relationship so cold, I know it by my heart.. and I can't help but feel really sad for it. Well, hope I could endure it, hope I would be strong enough not to give up.

I am thinking about a person who always tell jokes and make me happy when we are together. It's hard to forget the words, and I hope I could hear those jokes again. There is a saying from that person that I cannot forget
       "စိတ္ဆိုးေအာင္လုပ္ႏုိင္ပါတယ္။ စိတ္နာေအာင္ မလုပ္ပါနဲ႔".


I am really sorry if I have ever made you feel hurt, my beloved ones..

Remembrance

A day like today should be a memorable day for every Myanmar.  I know they are trying to erase his history, his glory of braveness and his sacrifices. However, History can never be erased, and neither his image in Myanmar People's mind. Generation will carry on, and he will always be our respected person.


Well, I don't want to talk repeated words. Today is the day he left this world___ 19th July.
This post is just a random post for my remembrance  to him.

It's not a birthday,... so how could I say "Happy" word?  But, I hope another him which bring back sunshine to Myanmar......

                               The One I Respected Most (Bogyoke Aung San)

Btw, I want to share a sentence I like from this post.

ဗိုလ္ခ်ဳပ္က မေသေသးဘူး...
အခုထိ အသတ္ခံေနရတုန္း... လို႕ပဲ ၂၀၁၀ အာဇာနည္ေန႕မွာ ထပ္ေျပာခ်င္ပါတယ္။

With much respect,
Khin Thuzar Thin

Happy Father Day

အေဖမ်ားေန႔တဲ့..
တစ္ခါမွေတာ့ မၾကားဖူးဘူး။ ဒီႏွစ္ သူမ်ား Invite လုပ္ေတာ့မွသိတယ္။ :)

ခုတစ္ေလာ ပါးပါးကို သတိရပါတယ္။ပါးပါးရဲ ႔ ဆူသံ၊ ေနာက္ကေလလိုက္ျပီး လုပ္သမွ် ပြစိပြစိေျပာတဲ့အသံေလးကို လြမ္းေတာ့ လြမ္းမိသား။ :D ဘာပစၥည္းဝယ္ဝယ္ ပိုက္ဆံျဖဳန္းတယ္ဆိုျပီး ေျပာလြန္းလို႔ ေနာက္ပိုင္း ပစၥည္းဝယ္ေလ့အက်င့္မရွိေတာ့တဲ့အထိ ျဖစ္ေအာင္ ျပဳစုပ်ိဳးေထာင္ေပးခဲ့တဲ့ အေဖ။ ဟိဟိ...

မွတ္မိေသးတယ္။ ငယ္ငယ္တုန္းက တရုတ္စာ စသင္ခ်ိန္ စာစေရးတတ္တုန္းက စစခ်င္း ေရးတဲ့စာေၾကာင္းက
 ေဝါအိုက္နီ, ပါ့ပါ ။ ေဝါအိုက္နီ, မာ့မာ ( 我爱你，爸爸. 我爱你，妈妈 )  :)  ကေလးတုိင္းလုိလိုေတာ့ အဲလိုေရးခဲ့ဖူးမယ္ ထင္တာပဲ။ လူသားအားလံုး ကိုယ့္မိဘေတြကို ခ်စ္တတ္ပါတယ္။:)
ကဲ.. ဒီႏွစ္ေတာ့ အေဖမ်ားေန႔ကို ဆင္ႏြဲပါမယ္။ အေဝးတစ္ေနရာမွာရွိတဲ့ ခ်စ္ရေသာ ပါးပါး က်န္းမာေရးေကာင္းပါေစ။ စိတ္အျမဲခ်မ္းသာပါေစ။ စိတ္ထဲကေနပဲ ရွိခုိးလိုက္ပါတယ္ ပါးပါး။ :)

                                   My celebration of Father Day  :) 

ကမာၻေပၚမွာ ရွိၾကတဲ့ အေဖအားလံုး 20 June မွာ ေပ်ာ္ရြင္ၾကပါေစ။ :)

                                                                              
Khin Thuzar Thin

The fact that you should know

When I say "let me be alone" , it does not mean " you have to go away from me" . I just requesting you to be silent and just be there where you are , either you are besides me or you are online. I realy do not know what to say and what to do when I am really down. So just please be with me and silent. That's all I need.

Random

A lot of things happened since the school started. I haven't been able to concentrate to make a new post.. Actually, there is nothing to say.  Happy memories always come with a bit sad missing feeling and stupid intuitions made me worry for little things , So, I am feeling complicated.. and I think time pass so fast during these days..

Well, I will turn to 18 after 2 days from now.. Thinking about my birthday, I feel nostalgia again, remembering my childhood birthdays. I remembered the birthday cake my father bought once for my birthday. It was my first and last birthday celebration with all family members.. (@_@ Family gathering.. =.=)  I remember the video of me playing around everywhere .. taken by my father and brother. I wanna watch that again. :) 

I have also read one post by someone.. Reading her words is like looking me at the mirror. I see the reflections of me through it. Her feelings are same with me, yes.. relating to first love. I think most of girls will have it in common. Sadly, I can't do anything for her.. Can I even be friends with her ( with someone's acknowledgement) ? .. I don't know. But she is only suffering for one year. I hope time will cure , like I have no feelings at all about the end story now.... Memories can't be erased, but feelings can be thrown away. I think so, and I believe so..    

" Hope someone will be happy sooner, and feel like she is the happiest person in the wold. "

Just a random post.. Hope you all don't mind it..  :)

သၾကၤန္~~ သၾကၤန္~~

သၾကၤန္ကေတာ့ ျပီးသြားျပီ။ ဘာမွ မထူးျခားသလိုပဲ။ ၃ႏွစ္ေတာင္ရွိျပီေပါ့ မေပ်ာ္ရတာ။ ဒီႏွစ္.. ဒုတိယႏွစ္စတက္တယ္။ အလုပ္နဲ႔ ေက်ာင္းနဲ႔ ျပန္ျဖစ္သြားျပီ ^_^.. ဒါေပမယ့္ စိတ္ကရန္ကုန္ကိုပဲ ေရာက္ေနတယ္။
သၾကၤန္မွာ.. ဘာလုပ္သလဲဆိုေတာ့ ငယ္ငယ္တုန္းကေတာ့သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြနဲ႔ ရပ္ကြက္ ပတ္္တယ္.. လမ္းတကာေလွ်ာက္သြားတယ္။ ခြက္ေစာင္းရွိတဲ့လမ္းေတြဆို ေရွာင္တယ္။ ျပီးရင္ အိမ္နားက စုေပါင္းေရပတ္တဲ့ေနရာမွာ ေရပက္တယ္ (အိမ္ကေရခြက္ေတြလည္း အျမဲေပ်ာက္တယ္ ေမာင္ႏွမေတြ ေဆာ့ခ်က္ :D )။ နားခ်ိန္မွာ..အိမ္နီးခ်င္းေတြလာပို႔တဲ့.ေရႊရင္ေအး..မုန္႔လက္ေဆာင္း.(မုန္႔လံုးေရေပၚမွ အပ.:D) စားတယ္။ ညဘက္ဆို ကာတြန္းစာအုပ္ေတြငွားတယ္။ မ႑ပ္ထုိင္ ေရကစားတဲ့
အေလ့အထေတာ့ မရွိဘူး။ အိမ္က မန္းနီးမေပးတာက အဓိကတရားခံ. ေနပူမခံႏိုင္တာက တစ္ခ်က္။ ဒီႏွစ္ျဖစ္ခဲ့တဲ့အေျခအေနေပၚမူတည္ရင္ေတာ့ အဲဒီမ႑ပ္မထုိင္တာကပဲ ေကာင္းတယ္လို႔ ေျပာရမလား
မသိ.. :S
သတိရမိတာက လမ္းအခ်င္းခ်င္းျဖစ္တဲ့ သၾကၤန္ရန္ျဖစ္ပြဲေလးပါ။ ရပ္ကြက္မွာသုခုမလမ္းဆိုတဲ့ လမ္းရွည္ရွိတယ္။ အဲဒီလမ္းကိုမွ အပုိင္းျခားေလးေတြ လုပ္ျပီး ေတာင္ပုိင္းေျမာက္ပိုင္းလား.ခြဲထားတယ္။ အဲေတာ့ တျခားလမ္းကသူေတြ ကုိယ့္လမ္းလာရင္ ခြက္ေစာင္းခုတ္ေရာ။ေနာက္ကေလးေတြေပါင္းျပီး စတီးျပြတ္ကိုင္၊ ေရဗံုးကို လြယ္အိတ္နဲ႔သယ္ ျပီးေတာ့ တျခားလမ္းကိုခ်ီတက္..အဲကအဖြဲ႔ေတြနဲ႔ အျပိဳင္ဖိုက္. :D ။ ေတာ္ေတာ္ေလးေတာ့ ေပ်ာ္ဖို႔ေကာင္းပါတယ္.. ရန္ျဖစ္ခ်င္တဲ့စိတ္ေတာ့မဟုတ္ဘူး..အေပ်ာ္သေဘာ။ ေနာက္သၾကၤန္ျပီးရင္ ျပန္တည့္သြားျပန္ေရာ။ အဲဒီကေန လမ္းသူလမ္းသားခ်င္း စုေပါင္းတဲ့စိတ္ဓာတ္ဆိုတာ ျဖစ္လာတယ္။ သူငယ္ခ်င္းေနတဲ့လမ္းျဖစ္ေပမယ့္ အျမဲသြားလည္ေနၾက ကၽြန္မေတာင္ သူတို႔ကို ခင္ပါတယ္။ ပြဲေတာ္တုိင္းမွာ စည္တာကုိး... ခုေတာ့မသိေတာ့ဘူး.. လြန္ခဲ့တဲ့ ၅ႏွစ္က ကေလးေတြက..ခုေတာ့ လူပ်ိဳေတြ အပ်ိဳေတြျဖစ္လာျပီေလ.. အဲလိုဘယ္ေဆာ့ၾကေတာ့မလဲ.. :D
     မလည္ရတဲ့ သၾကၤန္သံုးႏွစ္ကို ႏွေျမာလိုက္တာ၊ဆယ္တန္းျပီးသြားေတာ့ အေမက ကုသိုလ္ယူရမယ္ဆိုျပီး သီလရွင္သၾကၤန္တြင္း ဝတ္ခုိင္းတယ္။ အဲဒီႏွစ္္ျပီးေတာ့့ ဒီကုိပို႔တယ္။ ဒီႏွစ္က်ေတာ့ အိမ္မျပန္လာနဲ႔တဲ့.. >.< ေနာက္ႏွစ္ဆိုရင္ ဘာအေၾကာင္းျပခ်က္ေပးဦးမလဲ မသိဘူး... :(

ေလာေလာဆယ္ သၾကၤန္ပိုးကေတာ့ေသသြားျပီ.. ထပ္ထလာမယ့္ပိုးကေတာ့??     ^_^

Let me share my only one Thingyan photo of 2008

 Can you find little "Nun" Khin Thuzar Thin??? .. :D

သုိ႔/ အေမ

အေမ

အေမ့သမီး အေတာင္စံုမေပါက္ေသးပဲ

တစ္ေယာက္တည္း ခရီးသြားရတာ..

ေမာ.. ေမာပန္းလွပါျပီ။

အေမ

အေမ့ေမတၱာ အေဖ့ေမတၱာေတြ

မျဖန့္ၾကဲႏိုင္တဲ့ ဟိုအေဝးကေနရာေတြဟာ

တကယ့္...ကႏာၱရေတြလိုပါပဲ။

အေမ

အေမ့သမီးေတာ့ ေရငတ္ေနပါျပီ။

ဒါေပမယ့္.. အဲဒီငတ္မြတ္မွဳက

အခါးဓာတ္ေတြပါ တစိမ့္စိမ့္ ထုတ္ေနတယ္ဆိုတာ

အေမ.. အေမေတာ့ မသိေလာက္ပါဘူး။

ဘာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ေပါ့ အေမရယ္

တစ္ေန႔မွာ.....

ေနာင္လာမယ့္တစ္ခ်ိန္မွာ

သမီး အေမအေဖရဲ႔ အရိပ္ေအာက္မွာေနရင္း

ဆန္ေရေလး စီးခြင့္ရမယ့္အခ်ိန္ေလး

ေတြးဆ.. အားတင္းထားလ်က္ပါ။

(ခင္သူဇာသင္း)

P.S: I won't accept Negative Comments!!

~~Today? 27? What's it?~~

Guess what's 27 March?
Is there anything special on the earth on 27th March????
Yes, there is!

It may not be special for everyone...
But in my mind, whenever thinking of March 27, I feel the braveness. Feel thrilled and wonder by the braveness of Myanmar.
On this day, with the lead of our General Bogyoke Aung San, Myanmar was able to show their braveness through the world...
Think through~~ Could the big China be able to fight all the Japanese from their land??
No, isn't it?
But Myanmar did! :) I don't care whatever help they got for this.
The most important thing is - on this day, we knew the union of all races_ for fighting Japan which treated our people badly..
This day is a proof of our general leadership, and a proof of Myanmar Army united by brave boys of Myanmar..
Yes, today is The Armed Force Day Of Myanmar, March 27.

It's the past, but never old and will not die _ in the memories of Myanmar People who knows their history.


And I am wondering_ "Will our young generation, the children of Myanmar currently be still able to know those????"
I dare not to see the future....

My Feeling

There is a boy in the earth
He cares me since I was young
He loves me and I love him, too
I remember the time when he used to accompany me to go back home on his bicycle..
It has been such a long time.. May be 10 years ago..
When I was young, we slept together
When the weather was cold, his warm arms were the greatest blanket for me

After one year from now on, he may become "a man" in society
If things are getting better, I would be staying with him
I can help him by doing household things, cooking for him, etc....
May be I can feel the feelings back.. the feelings that is lacking within my mind since 5 years ago..
Hope happy times will come together with my beloved person..
My Brother~~~ Is Going to Graduate after one year~~ ^_^
And Now I only have hopes of living with him together
:)
This letter is dedicated to you, My Brother

အေမျဖစ္ခ်င္တဲ့ဆႏၵ

မွတ္မိေသးတယ္.. အဲဒီတုန္းက အေမ့ရဲ႔၀င့္ၾကြားတဲ့မ်က္လံုးေတြ.. သမီးအတြက္ ဂုဏ္ယူပီတိျဖစ္ေနတဲ့
အေမ့မ်က္ႏွာ... ႏွစ္စဥ္ ဆုေပးပြဲအခမ္းအနားတုိင္း အေမျပံဳးတဲ့ အျပံဳး..

ဆယ္တန္း ဖ်ားတုန္းက ေဆးခန္းတစ္ခါသြားခဲ့ရတယ္။ ေဆးခန္းက အျပန္ ဆရာ၀န္ဆိုင္းဘုတ္ေလးကိုၾကည့္ျပီး..
" ေတြ႔လား အထူးကု ဆရာ၀န္တဲ့ အဲဒီလိုဘြဲ႔ရေအာင္ လုပ္ေနာ္ စာေတြ အမ်ားၾကီးဖတ္..အမ်ားၾကီးသင္.. ".
အေမ ျဖစ္ေစခ်င္တာ ဆရာ၀န္မတဲ့။ အမ်ိဳးထဲက ေက်းဇူးရွင္ အေဒၚက ဆရာ၀န္မဆိုေတာ့ သူလည္း ကိုယ့္သမီးကို ဆရာ၀န္ျဖစ္ေစခ်င္မွာေပါ့။

တစ္သက္လံုး အေမ့ စကားနားေထာင္တဲ့သူ.. အေမ့ရဲ႔အားေပးစကားအတုိင္း ၾကိဳးစားခဲ့ပါတယ္။
အေမ ေမွ်ာ္လင့္တဲ့အတိုင္းလည္း ေဆးလိုင္းရခဲ့တယ္။ အဲဒီတုန္းက အေမ အိမ္မက္ေတြ အမ်ားၾကီး မက္ခဲ့မွာပဲေနာ္။။
ဒါေပမယ့္ တကၠသိုလ္ေရြးဖို႔ အခ်ိန္ေရာက္လာတဲ့အခါ အေမရဲ႔ အိမ္မက္ေတြပ်က္လြင့္လာတယ္.. ကၽြန္မအတြက္ကေတာ့ စိတ္အညစ္ဆံုးကာလလို႔ ဆိုရမလားပဲ...
ျမန္မာျပည္မွာ ဆရာ၀န္ေပါင္းမ်ားစြာ.. အလုပ္မဲ့နဲ႔.. တရုတ္လူမ်ိဳးျဖစ္တဲ့ ကၽြန္မအတြက္ကေတာ့ ေမွ်ာ္လင့္ခ်က္နည္းပါးတယ္လို႔ အေဖယူဆတယ္။
အေကာင္းဆံုးလမ္း..အသင့္ေတာ္ဆံုးလမ္းကို အေဖေလွ်ာက္ခုိင္းတယ္..အေမက သေဘာမက်ေပမယ့္ မကန္႔ကြက္ႏိုင္ဘူး။
ဒီလိုနဲ႔ပဲ ကၽြန္မ ေဆးတကၠသိုလ္ဆိုတာ. တစ္ေခါက္ပဲ ေရာက္ခဲ့ဖူးျပီး... အေမ့ရဲ႔ဆႏၵကို မျဖည့္ႏုိင္ခဲ့ဘူး။ အမွန္အတုိင္းေျပာရရင္ ၀မ္းနည္းမိပါတယ္။ အရမ္းခင္မင္တဲ့ သူငယ္ခ်င္းေတြနဲ႔လည္း ေ၀းခဲ့ရတယ္၊
အေမ့စိတ္ကူးကိုလည္း အေကာင္အထည္ေဖာ္ေအာင္ မလုပ္ေပးႏိုင္ဘူးဆိုျပီးေတာ့..။
ဒါေပမယ့္ ဆရာတစ္ေယာက္ရဲ႔စကားက ကၽြန္မကို အင္အားေတြ အျမဲေပးတယ္။
"ဘယ္ေနရာေရာက္ေရာက္ ဘာပဲလုပ္လုပ္ ကုိယ္လုပ္တဲ့အလုပ္မွာ အျမဲတမ္းထူးခၽြန္ေအာင္ၾကိဳးစားတဲ့။"

၁လပိုင္းက အေမလာလည္သြားတယ္။ ေက်ာင္းကိစၥကို ေမးျပီးေတာ့ မာစတာ.. Ph.D ရေအာင္လုပ္တဲ့.. ။ ျဖစ္ေစခ်င္ေနတဲ့ အေမ့ရဲ႔ဆႏၵေတြ... တစ္ခ်က္ေလး ျငင္းဆန္ႏုိင္ဖုိ႔ အင္အားေတာင္မရွိခဲ့ဘူး။
ေျပာေတာ့ ေျပာလိုက္ပါတယ္.. အေမ့သမီးေဂါက္သြားမွ အေမ ျပဳစုေနရဦးမယ္လို႔. :D

ဒါေပမယ့္ ဆရာ၀န္မျဖစ္ေတာ့ေပမယ့္ တာ၀န္ယူရမယ့္ အလုပ္တိုင္းမွာ.. အေမဂုဏ္ယူႏိုင္ေအာင္ အျမဲၾကိဳးစားေနပါမယ္။
အေမ့သမီးလို႔ လူတုိင္းကို အေမ ေခါင္းေမာ့ လက္မေထာင္ျပီး ေျပာႏုိင္ေအာင္လည္း ၾကိဳးစားရပါဦးမယ္.. :)

A Storm?

Tonight~~ will be a sorrow night again..  
Too much disappointed feelings with plenty of sorrows..
I am feeling ignorance again.. though it's faking

It reminds me of back to 2 years.. from my birthday to July..
I was hoping..hoping to see someone..
Trying.. trying to meet with someone...
But I got ignored........... those are completely nightmares

I wish I won't face any nightmares in the future...

After a storm, may there be a beautiful rainbow???

My Suggestion

It has been two weeks that I didn't work because of my exams. After two working days on 16 and 17 Jan, I got tired again. However, I got new experiences again. :)

There was a customer yesterday who changed shoe about four times. :D He was an old man from Jakarta,buying shoe for his mother. I guess he is around 40+ , guess how old will his mother be?? :) First, he bought closed shoe, however he got a call from his mother telling him that she wants sandal. So, he changed to sandal. He asked to change the sandal with no health support (without magnet and massage things). But he asked me which one is better for old lady and I suggested to choose another shoe.So, he changed again. Later, he changed another shoe, because he thought his mother would like that colour. :) Four times of changing shoes_ some promoter might feel a little impatient. However, I felt pleased to serve him. Such a clever son he is, isn't he? ^_^

Sale promoter job sounds nice! But if you can't stand complains or choosy people, you might feel like hell. :D And if you get full shift, it feels like hell standing 12 hours. Am I complaining? :D.. However what sale promoters usually enjoy their job is serving customers. If a customer feel happy by getting the shoe, they feel happy too. And a word from customers "Thank You" is worth serving them. And what we should have in my mind is "Customers Always Right", no matter how complaining she/he is.

Sometimes, I feel pleased to see people buying shoes for others, especially like the shoes I am selling (for old people and for good health). They buy for their mothers, their aunts and their relatives with the purpose of making their health better by wearing those.Some men buy for their "Ministry of Home Affair" (^_^ They are most important,right? :P) . If you ask a woman whether she'd like to get those kinda care from thier beloved, they would all say "Yes". But it's not only woman, I think all people want this kind of caring.And I suggest all to buy comfort shoes for your beloved to make them feel comfort everyday. :)

P.S: Seriously Not advertising. I just present the opinion I get from my job and I wish everyone to have a kind of pleasure for making their beloved ones. 

ဒီအခ်ိန္ ရန္ကုန္မွာဆို……

ဒီႏွစ္ ၁၃, ၁၄  စာေမးပြဲလည္းျပီး.. တရုတ္ႏွစ္သစ္ကူးလည္းျဖစ္.. ေကာင္းေတာ့ ေကာင္းပါတယ္။ ေတာ္ေတာ္ေလးတုိက္ဆိုင္တာေတာ့. ဗုိလ္ခ်ဳပ္ေမြးေန႔၊ တရုတ္ႏွစ္သစ္ကူး၊ ခ်စ္သူမ်ားေန႔ .. သုံးရက္လံုးက စုသြားတယ္။.. အမွတ္ရစရာေတြလည္း မ်ားသြားတာေပါ့.. 
(ခ်စ္သူမ်ားေန႔ေတာ့ ပါဘူးေနာ္.. No participation of Valentine Day in the past J )

အရင္ဆို တရုတ္ႏွစ္သစ္ကူးမတိုင္ခင္ မိသားစုစားပြဲ နဲ႔ ႏွစ္ကူးေန႔ဆို. အမ်ိဳးေတြစုျပီး ေလွ်ာက္လည္က်တယ္။ ႏွစ္ကူးမတိုင္ခင္ေန႔ဆို. မားမားကခ်က္. ေမာင္ႏွမေတြက အိမ္နဲ႔အရမ္းရင္းႏွီးတဲ့သူေတြကို ဟင္းေတြပို႔ေပါ့.။ ခင္သူဇာသင္းတို႔ကေတာ့ ရပ္ကြက္လူၾကီးနဲ႔ လမ္းလူၾကီးအိမ္ကုိ ဒုိင္ခံပါတယ္.. (ေစတနာရွိလို႔ေတာ့ ဟုတ္ဘူး. လမ္းလူၾကီးေျမးက ရပ္ကြက္ထဲမွာ ကိုယ့္စိတ္ထင္ အေခ်ာဆံုးမို႔လို႔..  ဟိဟိ. အဲလို ေပါခဲ့တာ.. )

 ျပီးရင္ အန္ေပါင္းေတြ အနည္းဆံုး ၃အိတ္ေလာက္ရပါတယ္။ ႏွစ္ကူးတဲ့ေန႔က်ေတာ့ ေတာင္ၾကီးမုန္႔ဆိုင္က လူေတြနဲ႔တူတူေလွ်ာက္လည္ပါတယ္။ အမ်ိဳးရင္းေတြ မဟုတ္ေပမယ့္ အမ်ိဳးေတြလိုျဖစ္ေနတဲ့ မိသားစုေတြေပါ့။  သူတို႔ဆို အရမ္းေကာင္းပါတယ္. မိသားစုေတြအကုန္ စုစုစည္းစည္းနဲ႔ အဲဒီအိမ္ၾကီးမွာ. ပြဲရက္တုိင္းစုၾကတာ။ အဲဒီမိသားစုေတြဆီကပဲ.. အန္ေပါင္းေတာ္ေတာ္ရပါတယ္.. အဲဒီအန္ေပါင္းေတြနဲ႔ ကဲၾကတာေပါ့။ J

တရုတ္ႏွစ္ကူး ေနာက္ဆံုးေလွ်ာက္လည္ရတဲ့အခ်ိန္က ဆယ္တန္းမတိုင္ခင္ ႏွစ္ကူး။
 ဆယ္တန္းတုန္းကေတာ့ စာအေၾကာင္းျပျပီး  မလုိက္ျဖစ္ဘူး။ အဲဒီကတည္းက
 ႏွစ္ကူးရန္ကုန္မွာမလည္ျဖစ္တာ အခုထိပဲ။ဒီႏွစ္ေတာ့ ေျပာင္းျပန္ေပါ့. ႏွစ္ကူးမတိုင္ခင္တစ္ရက္က
ေလွ်ာက္လည္. ႏွစ္ကူးရက္က်ေတာ့ ခ်က္.. J ေနာက္ႏွစ္ေတြ ေနာက္ႏွစ္ေတြလည္း ႏွစ္ကူး
 ဒီမွာပဲ ရွိမယ္ထင္ပါရဲ႔.. ။

အခုခ်ိန္ ရန္ကုန္မွာဆို သူတို႔ေတြ ေလွ်ာက္လည္ေနေလာက္ျပီ။ မားမားလည္း မေန႔က
 ဟင္းေတြခ်က္လို႔  ႔ေမာေနေလာက္ျပီ။ ပါးပါးလည္း တီး၀ိုင္းနဲ႔ အလုပ္ရွုပ္ေနေလာက္ျပီ။
ေတြးမိရင္း လြမ္းပါတယ္။ အလြမ္းဆံုးကေတာ့ မားမားရဲ႔က်ိဳင္မဆိုင္၊၀က္သားနဲ႔မွ်စ္ ေရာခ်က္ထားတဲ့ 
ဟင္းခ်ိဳေလးပါပဲ.. L အစ္မကေတာ့ အဲေလာက္ မခ်က္တက္ဘူး။
 ျပီးေတာ့ ႏွစ္ကုူးအျပီး.. ကုကၠိဳင္းဘုံေက်ာင္းမွာ က်င္းပမယ့္ နဂါးကပြဲကိုလည္း လြမ္းမိပါတယ္။
 ႏွစ္ကူးညတိုင္း သြားေနက်ေရႊတိဂံုဘုရားလည္း အေ၀းကပဲ လွမ္းဖူးေျမာ္လုိက္ပါတယ္။..

အခုခ်ိန္ ဒီမွာေတာ့ ႏွစ္ကူး ေမာင္ႏွမေတြစုျပီး စားပြဲလုပ္ပါတယ္။ ဒါေပမယ့္ မိဘေတြမပါေတာ့
သိပ္ျပီး မစံုလင္ဘူးလို႔ ခံစားမိတယ္။ စိတ္ထဲမွာေတာ့ ေမွ်ာ္လင့္မိပါတယ္။တစ္ေန႔က်ရင္ မိသားစုေတြ
စုစုစည္းစည္း ေနႏိုင္ျပီး အတူတူအဲလို ပြဲေလးေတြကို ႏႊဲရေအာင္ေပါ့။.. 

အလြမ္းေတြနဲ႔.. ရန္ကုန္ကိုသာ…. ။  

Private Or Public?

                  I had a discussion with my friend while studying for web and new media. He asked me "Why do people make their blog "Private" and "Just Invite the person who you like to share to give access to your blog"  instead of making "Public"? It's a good question because those actions contradict with the purpose of the blog. What we learnt about the purpose of a blog is "to share opinions and knowledge" and gather "Interaction (Discussion, mainly by comments) , and if so, what is the point of making "Private" and limit people who can access your blog.

              Many answers will be out there.. for their own reasons. (DPDP). :D

To be honest, I used to make my blog "Private" :) when I just write about my feelings.. , but it is not fun.. like writing boring diary. But sometimes, I wonder whether I could limit the person who can view my blogs (Just invite my friends). The main reason is I am just worried my brother would find it out and know all the things I hide .. (Such a clever little sister. :D)

Any ideas for my choices?? You are warmly welcome to give me whatever advice. :)

Immature ..

               Today, I sent off my mum to the airport, not feeling good in my mind. I got the feeling I used to have one years ago, my departure day from Yangon.  A mood of farewell to my beloved_ this is hard to mention.  Tears were trying to come out from my eyes.. but I controlled them. I don’t want to show those weakness to my family. I know I can go to MM in September but it still too long.. 7 months ~~ Sigh..

                I know that I cannot be my mother’s childish daughter all the time. But still I want to be like that, I want her care_ all the time. This is a kind of selfishness of a person who has three siblings. But who cares? :D  Through this one year, I missed her cares so much and only in this month, I got it back.  If possible, I want to be with my mum, all the time. I am still being an immature little girl.

               

If I were to send off you on the day of your departure, I don’t know how I would be. Exactly may be feeling like today.