For You

I dreamt about you. Even in the dream, you were sad because of my actions again. It gave me so much pain to see you like that.

During this past three years, I have been lacking so much in treating you.
I received so much love (more than anyone in the world except my family has given to me), but I couldn't return equally.
I know I am selfish and only cared my feelings most. I tried my best, however things didn't always happen as I wanted to.
Family problems, depressions and confused feelings - it was beyond my capabilities to handle well.
Now that I let you go, I hope you to meet a girl better than me.
I can't keep this friendship, I can't keep this relationship. I have to stop my feelings for you, and yes I am trying to do so.

The most painful thing for a person is to think over the past memories with someone after parting. It'd be so selfish for me to ask you not to forget me, remember me and think about me.
If possible, just try to be selfish. Forget me. Forget all those memories. Please be happy and don't feel anything - sadness, guilty or regrets.

The best gift I can give to you will be to show me living well without you.
And for your request to not forget you, I won't forget your birthday, your kindness and some special little things about you.
However, I may forget about my feelings and memories about you and about us.
They may be disapperared from my memory and heart - like snowflakes .. like sands carried by the wind.

After the storm, there is always a sunshine. May the sun shine on you brightly after all these struggles.