Random Post #6

Saw a friend's post about Bambino song and happened to listen to this song



ေငြေၾကးေတြ မျပည့္စံုတဲ့ငါ ေရွ႕ေရးကို ေတြ႕ၾကံဳ တဲ့အခါ
ဆက္ျပီးေတာ့ မေျပာပါနဲ႔ကြာ မင္းမုန္းသြားမွာ ငါအေၾကာက္ဆံုးပါ
မ်က္၀န္းေတြ သိမ္းလိုက္ေတာ့မယ္ ဖြင့္မေျပာဘူး ထိန္းလိုက္ေတာ့မယ္
ျဖစ္ႏိုင္ရင္ ငါ့ရဲ႕အခ်စ္ေတြ တစ္ျခားတစ္ေယာက္ဆီ ယိမ္းလိုက္ေတာ့မယ္
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Well, as a teenager, this song was one of my fav songs. But this part of the lyrics always irritated me. One reason is why we need to love other person just because we don't have courage to love that person. Another reason is I myself is the one who is afraid of financial situations among two different people. I don't have faith in myself. I don't think I can handle severe poverty or being low class. And I also don't think I can handle marrying to a person from different background, be it very poor or very rich. Frankly speaking, I don't fancy rich guys and it's a far cry for me to have relationship with them. But what if I happen to like them or give them a space in my heart??? Well.. I think I should change my teenager's opinion and resort to that lyrics... Just keep that damn feelings and wait time to forget.

One more day from exam , study hasn't finished and I am feeling crazy... And this is really really random post..

Uncertainity of Future

Lately, I have been gettine news of friends losing family members. First, the friend whose father is a very good person though I have only met him for a few times. And my schoolmate lose her brother just suddenly. It just scare me so much of death.

I don't know when I will be losing my father, my mother, my brother and my sisters. No I am not going to be trouble myself everyday with this fear. But I really can't imagine myself without them. Each of them is very important to me. They are the reason I am here to this day. I have never forgotten the support and care I received from them .. every single details. The pain of losing them .. I don't ever want to face. But again, we just don't know what will happen tomorrow.. Just the thought of it is scary,very very scary and depressing.

But for now, I just have to live everyday praying them to be healthy and safe. Especially papa, mama and brother who are living far far away from me....
I am just missing you all.