Post No #sth

I've read another Tat-Ka-Tol Bhone Naing novel မ်က္ရည္ေလာကမ်ား၏ဟိုမွာဘက္ and once again I feel so devastated and disappointed after finishing it. Although I like his writing, why are his characters always so complex? May be it is due to generation difference, but I really hate that kind of endings :( .

And as usual, I think of you. I think that your mind might have been influenced by his books by seeing that you are more mature than me. Your thinking is always very different from me though we are of same age. Sometimes, I didn't like when you told me those strange and deep words that I couldn't comprehend. But I think I can understand you and your words now. (How did you even endure my childish behaviours and thinkings? )

I wonder whether I can move on completely without dwelling on past. I wonder whether I won't be doing second mistake again. I wonder, after all these pains, whether I can love a person so much like others. I wonder whether the person I am loving now .. loves me or not. I wonder whether we can be together even if we love each other. Future is a scary imagination, but just simply following my heart might break my heart in future. However, I feel so confused but I can't seem to stop loving him and missing him. :(
I am not guilty to love, but love comes with pain and I don't like it distracting me from my study. Oh. I don't really like my current self... really..

R.e.m.e.m.b.e.r

ဘာလိုလိုနဲ႔ ႏွစ္ႏွစ္ ျပည့္ခဲျ့ပီပဲ....
တစ္ခ်ိန္ခ်ိန္မွာေတာ့ ခံစားရခဲ့တာေတြ အားလံုး ေမ့သြားမွာပါ။
Time heals... and only memories will be left.. not the feelings

Just some quote

I saw one of my friends' post in facebook and really like it. I don't know it is her own writing or not though.. 

It is something I should always remember and take note of. When my anger, my pride over power my heart and brain, may this post will help me and calm my mind. 

တို႔ႏွစ္ေယာက္ တစ္ေယာက္ကိုတစ္ေယာက္ခ်စ္ခင္စံုမက္ေနရဲ႕သားနဲ႕
ဘယ္လိုေဘးပေရာဂေတြကမွ ဝင္ေရာက္မတားဆီးဘဲနဲ႕
ႏွစ္ေယာက္စလံုး လိမၼာပါးနပ္ရင္ ထာဝရေပ်ာ္ရႊင္ႏိုင္မွာကိုသိရက္နဲ႕
အခ်ိန္ေတြကကိုယ္ေတြရဲ႕ဘဝေတြကို တိုက္စားသြားၿပီဆိုတာေနာင္တရေနရက္နဲ႕
ဘာမွန္းမသိရတဲ႔ အျဖစ္အပ်က္ေတြအတြက္
ဘာေၾကာင့္ျဖစ္မွန္းမသိရတဲ႔ အေၾကာင္းအရာေတြအတြက္
ဘာကိုမွထပ္ၿပီးမစဥ္းစားၾကေတာ့ဘဲ
ဘယ္သူကမွဘယ္သူ႕မ်က္ႏွာကို မေထာက္ထား မငဲ႔ကြက္ေတာ့ဘဲ
အႏွစ္ႏွစ္အလလ စုစည္းတည္ေဆာက္ထားတဲ႔အရာတစ္ခုကို
အလြယ္တကူလက္လႊတ္လိုက္ရတယ္ဆိုရင္
ဒါဟာ မင္းေရာ ကိုယ္ေရာသိပ္ညံ႕လို႕ဘဲ။

Sometimes we just drift apart for no reason.. There may be misunderstanding, or disapointment, but why keep all to yourself instead of settling it by being honest. Arguments are not bad and we can explain each other and even understand better through good arguments.

But yeah when it's time to say goodbye, we will have to say goodbye no matter what..