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I am hating myself for unnecessary feelings..
That disease is growing more...
There is no one to be blamed, neither Me or That Person
However, I can't help but feel sorry for myself..
Yes, now April came
From now on and after 41 days, there will be my Birthday
Inside my mind, a desire that has grown since long years ago still alive..( Who will not want to be happy with xxxxxx on his/her birthday???? )
But I know... , and I understand the light of hope for this desire is fading and dying in this year.......
Will someone blame me for writing this?????????????
I am ready for all the wxxds..