Lately I have been asking myself this question "Am I unlucky in love?". And I know the answer is half-half.. I am unlucky in the way that I liked the person I shouldn't like and the person I like doesn't like me back. However I also won't forget that there were people who loved me and even if they don't now, I was happy when they did.
Was I unlucky to have met you or were u unlucky to have met me? The choices were ours but we made it turned into this ugly ending. Was it my fault not to hold tightly to you or was it your fault to ask for a break up? Everytime I ask those questions, I feel so suffocated. As much as I want to, I cannot complain about how could you change your mind so easily and leave me. I simply have to accept or otherwise I am going to live with anger my whole life. That is just not me.. I am not the type to put all the blame on people. I know I was wrong to some extent, however I am not guilty.
I don't believe it was because of our fate either. Fate creates meeting and goodbyes are just people' choices. But what I keep thinking is what have I gained and lost from meeting you. I was happy and yes, lucky to receive love and care. And I was devasted and unlucky to let my heart break again. I don't know but definitely I was not unlucky.
And I won't consider myself unlucky for anything.. things just happen and I'll just try to accept as they are.. simple mind, simple happiness and live peacefully.
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