Update =3

O_o.. It's almost about two months I didn't write any posts. Has been losing myself with family matters, house moving, and many occasions. Most of them were good moments and some were really bad.

So.. I am 21 this 11th May and I celebrated fully for it.
1.  Blood Donation for both of us birthdays (I fulfilled my last year wish at last!)
2. Offerings of fruits, water, snacks and candle light to Buddha in early morning on my birthday
3. Home cooked food and a small quiet celebration
4. Outgoing with my friends and had a fun time together ^_^

Not so say birthday wishes from others and my two most important persons in my life. This is the first time to hear his birthday wish. And I hope that won't be the last time.

Good news came and I might be enrolling to NTU if things goes well according to as I hoped. I really have to get the two loans and make things work out, if not I might have to return to workforce. Please let me have some good luck...

So we were talking over phone last Sat and he said he felt sad waking up every morning and realized I am not by his side. I know it sounds cheesy but I believe in him 100% because I am feeling the same too. It's not waking up though. Going to bed every night thinking of him, and again feeling sad and miss his presence.. .. people would think it's too much. But we both know that both of us are not lying.
Sometimes I think I am being too selfish making him suffer in this way. His life was peaceful before I came in. I don't know whether my love is just pure or selfish. Because every step I take for my life is like taking a step further away from his. Life isn't easy for him and I feel like I am making it harder for him. But then, part of me hopes that it's be good and enough if I am a source of happiness and comfort to him as he is to me. Please fate, bring us closer and make better situations for us. :)