Last night, I cried so much to the extent that I couldn't even breathe properly. I know this time, it's just temporary seperation. But I'm afraid it will turn out like last time... Can't you see my ultimate fear of losing you? Every night I go to bed missing you, I miss your hug and I recall the time I held you in my arms and not wanting to let you go. I miss you terribly.
Love is somehow selfish. Of course in the progress, we learn to sacrifice, sympathize, share and give up for each other. But the fear of losing you begins with the desire of possesing you -- to be with you every day and want your love to be only for me. I'm frightened by my love now. I am worried that I won't be able to endure the pain if I have to let you go one day by uncontrollable reasons and situations. I am worried my love would burden you one day and try to control your freedom without me realizing it. I am worried of my ego, my anger and my other half which could hurt you.
You know what is happening to me through my voice, and you always try to comfort me and make me happy when I'm down. It really made me feel warm when you tried to lift my mood by singing that song. I promise I'll be happy for you.
You like to exaggerate but you never tell words that's not from your heart. The best part of you is you don't pretend even if it takes making people think bad of you. The same goes for how you treated me back then. You didn't pretend like you still cared for me after we parted for a year. After all these years, I am the only who pretends and have doubts on you. But now,I know you are not lying to me and that you really love me and care for me. I have no doubts and I believe in our mutual love that is so deep, true and beautiful.
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