ထိေတြ႔ျခင္း အႏုပညာ

It reminds me so much of him....

I really really miss every seond of the moments I were with you..

ခ်စ္သူရည္းစားျဖစ္စမွာ လူအမ်ားစုက တစ္ေယာက္ကိုတစ္ေယာက္ ထိေတြ႔ဖို႔အတြက္ ဘယ္လိုစရမွန္းမသိ ေခါင္းစားတတ္္ၾကတယ္။ ေယာက္်ားေလးက ကိုယ့္အျပဳအမူ ရိုင္းစိုင္းသြားမွာကို စိုးရိမ္တယ္။ မိန္းကေလးက ေယာက္်ားေလး ကိုယ့္ကိုအထင္ေသးသြားမွာကို စိုးရိမ္တယ္။ တစ္ေယာက္ကိုတစ္ေယာက္ ထိေတြ႔တာကို ေယာက္်ားေလးဖက္က စတင္သင့္ပါတယ္။ ခ်စ္သူအျမင္မွာ ကိုယ့္အျပဳအမူ မရိုင္းစိုင္းရေအာင္ ထိေတြ႔တဲ့အႏုပညာတခ်ဳိ႕ မွ်ေဝလိုက္ပါတယ္။

လက္နဲ႔ ထိေတြ႔တဲ့အႏုပညာ

(၁) မ်ဥ္းၾကားျဖတ္ကူးခ်ိန္မွာ “လာ.. မီးနီေတာ့မယ္”ဆိုၿပီး သူ႔လက္ကိုတဲြၿပီး မ်ဥ္းၾကားျဖတ္ကူးႏိုင္တယ္။

(၂) ေလွ၊ သဗၺာန္ေပၚက ဆင္းခ်ိန္၊ ဒါမွမဟုတ္ မညီညာတဲ့လမ္းေပၚ ေလွ်ာက္တဲ့အခ်ိန္ ကိုယ့္လက္ကို အလိုအေလွ်ာက္ ကမ္းၿပီး “လာ.. သတိထား.. ငါ့လက္ကိုဆဲြ လဲက်တတ္တယ္” လို႔ ေျပာႏိုင္တယ္။

(၃) လူေတြတိုးေဝွ႔ခ်ိန္ “လူကဲြသြားမွာစိုးတယ္.. ငါ့လက္ကိုတဲြထား” လို႔ ေျပာႏိုင္တယ္။ တကယ္လို႔ သူက ရွက္ကိုးရွက္ကန္းလုပ္ေနရင္ သူ႔လက္ကို ဖ်တ္ခနဲတဲြထားႏိုင္တယ္။ တကယ္လို႔ သင့္ကို သူတကယ္ႏွစ္သက္ရင္ လက္ရုန္းခ်င္ဟန္ေဆာင္ၿပီး ၿငိမ္သြားလိမ့္မယ္။ တကယ္လို႔ လက္အတဲြမခံရင္ မတဲြပါနဲ႔။ သူ႔ဆႏၵကို ဦးစားေပး ေလးစားလိုက္ပါ။ ဒါဟာ သင္ေပ်ာ့ည့ံတယ္လို႔ သေဘာမေဆာင္ပါဘူး။

(၄) ထိုင္ရာက သူထရပ္ဖို႔ျပင္ခ်ိန္ “လာ.. ငါတဲြထမယ္”ဆိုၿပီး လက္ကိုတဲြထႏိုင္တယ္။

(၅) သူနဲ႔ လက္ဖဝါးအႀကီးအငယ္ခ်င္း တိုင္းၾကည့္ႏိုင္ၿပီး သူ႔လက္က ခ်စ္စရာေကာင္းေၾကာင္း ေျပာႏိုင္တယ္။

(၆) သင့္လက္ေကာက္ဝတ္ သူ႔ကိုဆဲြေစၿပီး အားစမ္းကစားႏိုင္တယ္။

(၇) လကၡဏာၾကည့္ႏိုင္တယ္။ ဒီနည္းက ရိုးၿပီး ေဟာင္းေနၿပီဆိုေပမယ့္ အက်ဳိးရွိပါတယ္။ တကယ္လို႔ လကၡဏာပညာကို သင္အနည္းအက်ဥ္း ေလ့လာထားတယ္ဆိုရင္ ငါးမိနစ္ေျပာရံုနဲ႔ သူ႔ကိုစိတ္ဝင္တစားျဖစ္ေစႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

ပုခံုးနဲ႔ ထိေတြ႔တဲ့အႏုပညာ

(၁) ေနာက္ေက်ာဖက္မွာ ကားလာတဲ့အခါ “ကားလာေနတယ္”ဆိုၿပီး သူ႔ပုခံုးကို ညင္ညင္သာသာ ထိႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၂) ဒါန္းစီးတဲ့အခ်ိန္ “လာ.. တြန္းေပးမယ္”ဆိုၿပီး သူ႔ပုခံုးကို သာသာေလးကိုင္ တြန္းႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၃) စားေသာက္ဆိုင္ေရွ႕ေရာက္တဲ့အခါ သူ႔ပုခံုးကို သာသာေလးပုတ္ၿပီး “ဒီဆိုင္ဆိုရင္ မဆိုးဘူး ထင္တယ္ေနာ္!” လို႔ေမးပါ။ တကယ္လို႔ သူသေဘာတူရင္ သူ႔ပံုခံုးကို သာသာေလးဖက္ၿပီး အတူတူဝင္သြားႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၄) ေလေအးေလးတိုက္လို႔ပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္၊ မိုးဖဲြဖဲြရြာလိုပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ သင့္အျပင္အကႌ်ကိုခၽြတ္ၿပီး သူ႔ပုခံုးေပၚ အသာေလးတင္ေပးႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၅) အေဆာက္အဦးကို မိတ္ဆက္ေျပာျပတဲ့အခါျဖစ္ျဖစ္၊ ေရွးေဟာင္းပစၥည္းကို မိတ္ဆက္ေပးတာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ ဘယ္လက္ကို သူ႔ပံုခံုးေပၚတင္ၿပီး ညာလက္နဲ႔ထိုးျပ မိတ္ဆက္ေပးႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၆) ကစားကြင္းမွာ ခ်ားရဟတ္စီးတာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္၊ ဒျမသေဘၤာစီးတာပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ သူ႔လက္ကို တင္းတင္းဆုပ္ကိုင္ထားႏိုင္သလို သူ႔ပုခံုးကို ဖက္ထားႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၇) ျမက္ခင္းျပင္ေပၚထိုင္ၿပီး သူထလာတဲ့အခါ “ဟာ.. ဒီမွာေပသြားၿပီ”ဆိုၿပီး လက္နဲ႔ သာသာေလး သူ႔တင္ပါးကို ပုတ္ေပးႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

မွတ္ထားရမွာက ထိေတြ႔တဲ့အျပဳအမူက သဘာဝက်ၿပီး ညင္သာရပါမယ္။ စကားအေျပာအဆိုလည္း သဘာဝက်ၿပီး ေပါ့ပါးရပါမယ္။ စိတ္လႈပ္ရွားတာမ်ဳိး၊ တုန္လႈပ္တာမ်ဳိး မရွိရပါဘူး။ မိန္းကေလးေတြက ပထမဆံုးအႀကိမ္ ေယာက္်ားေလးနဲ႔ ထိေတြ႔ဆက္ဆံတာမို႔ စိတ္လႈပ္ရွား၊ တုန္လႈပ္ေနၿပီးသားပါ။ ရင္ထဲမွာ သင့္ကိုတကယ္ႏွစ္သက္တယ္ဆိုရင္ သင္ထိေတြ႔တာကို သူေဗြယူမွာမဟုတ္ပါဘူး။ ေနာက္တစ္ႀကိမ္ သင္ဒီလုိလုပ္ဖို႔ကို သူေမွ်ာ္လင့္တတ္ပါေသးတယ္။ ဒါေပမယ့္ သင့္အျပဳအမူ၊ သင့္စကားအေနအထား၊ သင့္ဟန္ပန္ေတြက သူ႔ခံစားခ်က္ကို အမ်ားႀကီး အက်ဳိးသက္ေရာက္ေစႏိုင္ပါတယ္။ တကယ္လို႔ သင္အျပဳအမူေတြက သဘာဝမက်ေနဘူးဆိုရင္ သူလည္း အေနရခက္တာမ်ဳိး၊ သင့္ကို ျငင္းဆန္တာမ်ဳိးေတြ ျဖစ္တတ္ပါတယ္။

ေအာက္က အခ်က္ေတြက သင့္ကိုသူႏွစ္သက္ေစမယ့္၊ သင္လုပ္ရတာ သဘာဝက်ေစမယ့္ အခ်က္ေတြျဖစ္ပါတယ္။

တျခားအစိတ္အပိုင္းနဲ႔ ထိေတြ႔တဲ့အႏုပညာ

(၁) သူ႔ေခါင္းကို ပြတ္သပ္တယ္။ လက္ေခ်ာင္းနဲ႔ သူ႔ဆံပင္ေတြကို သပ္တင္ေပးတယ္။ ဒါမွမဟုတ္ လက္ေခ်ာင္းနဲ႔ သူ႔ဆံပင္ကို ဖြတယ္။ တကယ္လို႔ သူအမူအရာက ရွက္ကိုးရွက္ကန္းျဖစ္ေနၿပီး ျငင္းဆန္တဲ့ အရိပ္အေယာင္မျပဘူးဆိုရင္ ေနာက္တစ္ႀကိမ္မွာ ဒီထက္ထိေတြ႔ႏိုင္ဖို႔ သင္အခြင့္ရပါတယ္။

(၂) သူ႔လက္ကို ကုိင္တြယ္ခ်ိန္မွာ သူ႔လက္ေခ်ာင္း၊ လက္ဆစ္ေတြကိုလည္း ပြတ္သပ္ကုိင္တြယ္ႏိုင္ပါတယ္။ အမွတ္မထင္တဲ့ ခံစားမႈမ်ဳိး သူ႔ကိုခံစားေစႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၃) သူ႔ႏွာေခါင္းကို သာသာေလး ညစ္ကိုင္ႏိုင္တယ္။ ျငင္းဆန္စိတ္ဝင္သြားတဲ့ခံစားမႈမ်ဳိး သူ႔ကို ခံစားေစႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

(၄) လက္ညိဳးနဲ႔ သူ႔နဖူးကိုထိကို “ေတာ္ေတာ္ဆိုးတဲ့ ခ်ာတိတ္မ”လို႔ သူ႔ကိုရယ္ေအာင္ စႏိုင္ပါတယ္။

သတိထားရမွာက အထက္ကအခ်က္ေတြနဲ႔ အေျခခံထိေတြ႔မႈကို သင့္ေတာ္တဲ့ပတ္ဝန္းက်င္နဲ႔ သင့္ေတာ္တဲ့ အေျခအေနမွာ ျပဳလုပ္ရမွာျဖစ္တယ္။ ဥပမာ- စိတ္ထိခိုက္ဝမ္းနည္းတဲ့ ရုပ္ရွင္ကားမ်ဳိးၾကည့္ေနခ်ိန္မွာ လုပ္လို႔မရပါဘူး။ တကယ္လို႔ ပတ္ဝန္းက်င္သင့္ေတာ္ၿပီး ရိုမန္တစ္ဆန္တဲ့ အသက္အေငြ႔မ်ဳိး သင္ထည့္ႏိုင္ရင္ မိန္းကေလး စိတ္ဆိုးလိမ့္မွာမဟုတ္ဘူး။ ဒါေပမယ့္ အသက္ႀကီးပိုင္း ရင့္က်က္တဲ့ မိန္းကေလးမ်ဳိးဆိုရင္ သင္ရိုမန္တစ္ဆန္စရာ သိပ္မလိုပါဘူး။

မူရင္း-- http://www.rs66.com/a/3/57/27524_3.html

Credit: Translation by 99 Sanay

အခ်စ္ဆုိတာ..

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ တစ္ေယာက္နဲ႔တစ္ေယာက္ အေဝးေရာက္ေနတုန္း အခ်င္းခ်င္းဆက္တဲ့ဖုန္းျဖစ္တယ္။ လြမ္းဆြတ္ေဝးကြာေနတဲ့ ႏွလံုးသားတစ္စံုကို နီးကပ္ေစတယ္။

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ ေရဆာေနတုန္း ေသာက္ရတဲ့ေရတစ္ေပါက္ျဖစ္တယ္။ ပင္ပန္းေနတုန္း ေသာက္ရတဲ့ေရေႏြးၾကမ္းတစ္ခြက္ျဖစ္တယ္။ စိတ္ညစ္အားငယ္ေနတုန္း ႏွစ္သိမ့္အားေပးတဲ့စကားျဖစ္တယ္။စိတ္တိုေဒါသထြက္တုန္း ေနာက္ေျပာင္တဲ့ဟာသျဖစ္တယ္။ စိတ္မၾကည္လင္တုန္း နမ္း႐ႈံ႕လိုက္တဲ့ ပန္းကေလးတစ္ပြင့့္ျဖစ္တယ္။

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ စိတ္ေနစိတ္ထားတစ္ခုျဖစ္တယ္။ ႏွင္းဆီတစ္ပြင့္ပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္၊ စိန္လက္စြပ္တစ္ကြင္းပဲျဖစ္ျဖစ္ လွပတဲ့အခ်စ္ကို ပိုင္ဆိုင္ႏိုင္တယ္။ အခ်င္းခ်င္းၾကည့္တ့ဲ အၾကည့္ထဲကေန ေပ်ာ္ရႊင္မႈကိုရေစတယ္။

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ ယံုၾကည္မႈတစ္မ်ဳိးျဖစ္တယ္။ ဘယ္လိုပခံုးမ်ဳိးကိုမီွရမယ္ဆုိတာ သင္သိတယ္။ ဘယ္လိုရင္ခြင္မွာအိပ္မွ အိပ္ေပ်ာ္မယ္ဆိုတာကို သူသိတယ္။

အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ ဘဝတစ္မ်ဳိးျဖစ္တယ္။ မခဲြမခြာ၊ ဒိုးတူေပါက္ဖက္၊ လက္ခ်င္းယွက္ၿပီး ေလျပင္းမုန္တိုင္းေတြကို အတူတူရင္ဆိုင္တယ္။ ႏွစ္ၾကာေလ အဖိုးတန္ေလျဖစ္တဲ့ ႏွစ္ခ်ဳိ႕ဝိုင္ျဖစ္တယ္။

တကယ္ေတာ့ အခ်စ္ဆိုတာ မထင္မွတ္၊ ေမွ်ာ္လင့္မထားတဲ့အခ်ိန္မွာ သင့္လက္ကိုေႏြးေထြးေစၿပီး သင့္ႏွလံုးသားကို လႈပ္ရွားေစတဲ့အရာျဖစ္ပါတယ္။ ေႏြမိုးေဆာင္းအေျပာင္းအလဲၾကားမွာ အတူတူ တေျဖးေျဖးအိုမင္းသြားတာျဖစ္တယ္။ အခ်စ္က အဲဒီေလာက္ ရိုးရွင္းခဲ့ပါတယ္။

အခ်စ္ကို အမ်ဳိးမ်ဳိးဖဲြ႔ဆိုၾကတယ္။

ႏူးႏူးညံ့ညံ့ဖဲြ႔ဆိုတဲ့အခ်စ္က ခ်ဳိၿမိန္တယ္၊ ရင္ကိုၾကည္ႏူးေစတယ္။
ၾကမ္းၾကမ္းတမ္းတမ္းဖဲြ႔ဆိုတဲ့အခ်စ္က ရက္စက္တယ္၊ ရင္ကိုထိရွနာက်င္ေစတယ္။

သင္ေရာ.. အခ်စ္ကို ဘယ္လိုဖဲြ႔ဆိုခ်င္သလဲ?

(Credit: ႏိုင္းႏိုင္းစေန ဘာသာျပန္မွ) 

Scattered thoughts

9 holidays in Myanmar was really really short. I still can't adjust with my work after holidays. If I were brave enough, I just wanted to quit everything here and stay at Myanmar by going against my family. :( Well I am not brave enough and I can't do things that could make my mum sad.

I don't know what I am doing is right or wrong. I can't see the future, and I am afraid of future. I see no hope in this journey. This isn't a dark road, but I feel so blacked out.
But I am trying my best.... I am trying my best.

Even if all people in this world hate you,blame you and abandon you, I'll be on your side. I may not understand you fully, I may not know whether you are right or wrong, but I won't ignore you, abandon you and will always be with you. Even if I can't be with you physically, please know that my mind is always with you... always...

I wonder whether we are just foolish or being "two bodies one mind"....
I knew we would meet this time as I kept having dreams about you....
You told me it was coincidence but I knew you came to my house purposely on that day...
Luck is on our side this time, but I wonder until when will it be on our side.
Thank you so much... for making time for me even though you had many things to take care.... Thank you so much for waiting me patiently...

I will be always happy from now on because I know there are family, best friends and you who will always love me... even if the whole world ignores me and leave me behind.

For You

I dreamt about you. Even in the dream, you were sad because of my actions again. It gave me so much pain to see you like that.

During this past three years, I have been lacking so much in treating you.
I received so much love (more than anyone in the world except my family has given to me), but I couldn't return equally.
I know I am selfish and only cared my feelings most. I tried my best, however things didn't always happen as I wanted to.
Family problems, depressions and confused feelings - it was beyond my capabilities to handle well.
Now that I let you go, I hope you to meet a girl better than me.
I can't keep this friendship, I can't keep this relationship. I have to stop my feelings for you, and yes I am trying to do so.

The most painful thing for a person is to think over the past memories with someone after parting. It'd be so selfish for me to ask you not to forget me, remember me and think about me.
If possible, just try to be selfish. Forget me. Forget all those memories. Please be happy and don't feel anything - sadness, guilty or regrets.

The best gift I can give to you will be to show me living well without you.
And for your request to not forget you, I won't forget your birthday, your kindness and some special little things about you.
However, I may forget about my feelings and memories about you and about us.
They may be disapperared from my memory and heart - like snowflakes .. like sands carried by the wind.

After the storm, there is always a sunshine. May the sun shine on you brightly after all these struggles.

Random xxxxx

Had a little fight with my sis while preparing for dinner. Drove me so mad and I just slept and skipped dinner. It ended up she not cooking dinner and ate anyhow, me sleeping till 12am and woke up. Great! Who asked you to keep blaming me for everything???  Who asked you to assume that those are the things I should definitely do. Please have a little cooperation !! I'd rather live alone than having my mood spoiled everyday by you. Garrrrrrr

And days pass really slow when I am waiting for great events. Counting down .. 24 more days . =)
I hope to see you so much. I really hope we can reunite this time. Not only with you, I just wish me, theint, wityi, poe thar and you can meet again like those old days and hang out. How can you all change so much and dislike each other when we all used to be good friends? You all won't know but those days we studied, played around and had meals together in just a short time of three months -- were the happiest moments of my life. We got up early on weekends for study, we fought crazily while sharing food and we laughed with the same heart together. Does our friendship still exist or it stopped since October 2008, the last time we hanged out together.

I seems to live in the past. I don't hate the present me, but I just wish I can still keep things like it used to be in the past. But in reality, it is harder than I thought.

Anyway, you all are friends for me forever.

Christmas and New Year Memories

I know it's too late to write, but anyway I want to record the special memories of this Christmas and New Year.

Well, nothing so special on this Christmas. I met with Theint Theint, went shopping and had a great time with her. She seems to like here - the clean place, the sense of freedom (without a need to care other ppl's looks) and other things. But the funny thing is she always converts S$ to MM kyats and doesn't want to buy things. She is the type to buy a lot when we go shopping. The high prices might shock her. :D  We just went to Bugis and then came back around 5pm.

The next good event was going to USS with my brother, Theint and sis KP. Special thanks to my brother to accompany us and being nice to my friend even though he just got to know her. I really want social skills like him. The experience is really great, especially the rides. Transformer ride is the new coolest ride to try. Even though the queue was terribly long, the joys we had covered it up. But next time, I will make sure to buy express tickets, or may be arrange to go on weekdays.

Needless to say, my New Year Night was fun filled! The first time to celebrate New Year with friends and had fun. In Yangon, I was always at home and just did countdown with family. In the last three years, I was also at my sister's house and watched fireworks. This time really is the best countdown moment I have ever did. Karaoke with friends before Countdown, me and sis KP really had a great time shouting our heart out with best songs. :D (My singing skill really sucks! >_<)  . The large crowd leading to Countdown area is really no joke. We had to stop several times and kept moving to reach there. It was worth it anyway... The fireworks with music background was fantastic - the best I can ask for.When would be the next time we can ever have this kinda event and fun together? Seeing those firework, my mind feel really pleasant.  ^_^   I called my parents afterward, passing Myanmar New Year time with them on the air. :)

December - you have been really good to me this year. Thanks for all the good memories.

And 2013 , welcome you from the bottom of my heart. I have many plans to do in 2013. I hope everything turns out well, and I hope I can stay strong and overcome all the difficulties too. Happy New Year!

It's nearly Chritsmas and New Year ! Anticipating for 2013!

Time flies really fast. Just one eye blink and here we are, December - the end of 2012. It feels like yesterday that I visited to Orchard for Christmas and New Year Decorations last year. Well 2011 Christmas and New Year was the most boring since I was working. So, what about this year ? My plan? I still haven't figured it out.

I want to make New Year Resolutions - with new mind , with nothing involved for love, just purely my resolutions for my future. Gotta start the list soon. :)

Some says it's near the end of the world, but I don't think so yet. And I hope it won't come true, as I haven't met the person I want to see the most yet. And I haven't met my family for almost one year... So I am here anticipating 2012 to be over soon, and want to welcome '2012' warmly and waiting for February to arrive! To be back home in Chinese New Year _ the most enjoyable moment of the year for me. It's a pity my eldest sister can't join, but it's still better since this would be the first time for my family to celebrate CNY together since 2006. I miss family events, hope I can get those warm feelings again. :)

The most important things in your life

What's the most important thing in your life?

Family? Education? Money? Lover?

Well, whatever it is.. have you gotten that most important thing with you and besides you.. always.
Or have you already lost it - forever?

I think about it and I have three important things in my life currently.. Family, Education and Love.
Although it can't be said I lost my family, I somehow foolishly want back our old family .. the family dinner, after dinner drama time, the small little quarrels or jokes we had.. I miss them all. It's nearly impossible to have those kinds of gatherings currently..  Well may be someday.. if I could ,I will try to gather for family dinner again.

And to talk about 'Education', I am in the middle of the road to fully have it. I will wait patiently for the day when I can proudly stand on my feet, support my family and do communities work. That's my dream and I hope I won't get lazy as I am now. I hope I will get more mature and do work better and harder than now.

Love.... the love I believed is just simply love. Feeling happy when you see him, want to have fun with him together, sharing each other lives, having the same feeling, wanting to do anything for him and missing him so much if you don't hear from him for days. He is always in your morning and night thoughts. He is your morning coffee, the breeze touching your face softly and the melody you enjoy listening. I believe that it is love. But in reality, love... is so complicated. The love I received, the love I can't stop giving and the love I wanted so much to be real but turned out it was just my own illusion. It becomes so complicated and tiring that I think I might go crazy. So, I am just accepting the things that happened positively. Though it is sad & lonely, at least the burden I felt disappeared and I think it is the best possible way..

Family, Education, Love ..... yes, they are the most important things in my life. 

Songs I like

Currently the songs lingering in my mind

Subscribed YouTube Channel

These days, I rarely download music from Internet. I am mostly online and so I just listen directly from Youtube. There are a few channel I want to share.

For the best old burmese songs sharing channel, it's  https://www.youtube.com/user/nyeinchanaye81
Not only he uploads many songs, he also provide song writers and singers information in comment section. This is a very good way to know about burmese music history. People nowaddys seems not to care about those great music.. :(

Some channels are directly from Singers' YouTube channel like 2NE1, Taylorswift, etc. I don't know many though. And for fun, there is RayWilliamJohnson and Realannoyingorange .

This is an old song to share, but currently I am addicted to this song..  All time fav

Some thoughts

I am so emo today. I can't control myself thinking so much and can't focus on coding. So frustrating.
May be side affect of the drama .. @_@

Do you believe 'fate', 'eternal love' and 'reincarnation'? I really want to know what is my fate .. what kind of person I will be in future, who I am supposed to spend my life together with.. those kind of things. I believe love isn't something we can make and control. All the feelings and love to someone else is because of fate. If we aren't fated, we won't even be meeting, not to say to be close and love each other. So I think for someone to be in your mind all the times, isn't a simple kind of playful love, but a fated love ... be the consequences bad or good.

Well just a piece of thought after watching 'Rooftop Prince'. The drama isn't very realistic (time travel and mostly imaginative) but well entertaining and funny. Just watch for fun.The nickname of this drama is too funny "Joseon Power Rangers" XD

Another drama I watched last week is 'Sungkyunkwan Scandal'. This one again (though a little bit realistic) , I wish the actress is not too beautiful. One of the thing I like about korea drama is the lines of characters. In this drama, some lines about education and society are remarkable.

Watching movies and going work is the only things I do these days.. Is life becoming meaningless more and more? Sigh~~~

And the new song lingering in my ears is an OST from Rooftop Prince..

Current Update

Until now, I have written three mini web application for this company. They are just common data processing app (working with csv, xml and SQL) and a little bit of JQuery. And now excel.. I wish I could learn more than that!

For my part-time project, I am totally fed up with continuous installation errors of mysql-python , both on windows and mac osx. Read about online solutions..but no idea how to do. Am I too dumb ? :(

So.. just to give a break myself, I watch movies and shows.. well mainly korean. Currently watching "Arang The Magistrate" starring Shin Min Ah and Lee Jun Ki. It's not so addicting though (or may be I am currently possesed with Lee Seung Gi XD) .

And another awesome drama that keeps me impatient every week is "The Innocent Man/ Nice Guy/ There is no such thing as a nice guy" . This drama has all sort of feelings - hate, revenge, betrayal, true and deep love, first love , family issues, etc. Currently not at its climax, but still I am hating the main actor as he is using ppl feelings for his revenge. .. Don't play with feelings plz!!

And most of my weekdays and weekends are boring, but 2 Days 1 Night show fill the emptiness. I love their culture, food and scenry. It is a really funny and entertaining show. How I wish there would be Myanmar translation and I want my mother to watch those. She will really love it! :D

Knowing I have 14 annual leaves, my mind is always thinking to go back Myanmar. Sigh~~ .Yet I can't go back this year since I have to save more money. Well , I will make sure I go to lots of trip when I go back ^_^

No idea why I write this

Around two or three days ago, I saw a guy wearing a very nice Swatch and I was dreaming about buying it and giving present to him after I get the job. Well, now it seems like a really stupid idea.

I don't accept what others said that he is asking for break up because of depressions. I really find it as a lame excuse. Who haven't been in depression, who haven't been suffering a lot? I have suffered from depression of not getting job for five months. My sister got into big accident with police case and I had to go to hospital to take care of my nephew for around three weeks. My work pass application has been rejected for several times. What has been worser than this in my life? I don't want to make complaints and I didn't announce anything of it to my friends or relatives or anyone.

The point I want to say is that no matter how things get tired, I never mentioned about break up. I am afraid of getting hurt  and hurting people who I love. I know exactly how it feels after sudden break up and regretting it later. If I don't really care and love him, I would have said goodbye since a long time ago when my ex-boyfriend asked me to love him back. Well, I didn't accept his request and I never will. I have been hurt so so much with deep scars by him. Even though I love him to death, I can never trust him again, also will be afraid of getting betrayed and being left behind. I really hate that feeling... it just brings me to tears whenever I think about it.

So I promise myself that I won't do that to the people who I love. And I did try my best to keep relationship with him no matter how much I feel tired and frustrated with my complicated feelings. I know I always find troubles to him, starting fights , but in the end did I make those troubles too big and start big quarrels with him.. "NO, and Never". However I think the times that we being apart and our tired mind make us feel more and more far away from each other.

Anyway.. it's his decision that I have to respect and accept. I would cry, would feel angry and sorry but I don't want to hold someone who doesn't care about my feelings. Some said he might be pretending and wants to hold me back .. he might feel confused cuz of his trouble.. But 'breaking up' is the level that I can't hold on and take it easy. It involves hurting my pride and feelings; and damaging people opinions of me.

Since the day he wrote "I don't want to love anymore", I knew and expect this to happen soon, I even wrote my thoughts about it in diary.  However , I kept comforting myself that it won't happen and trusted him. But well trust is broken now. So I really have nothing to say - "NOTHING! NOTHING MORE".

~~~~ Recently ~~~~

I have been so busy these days, trying to do my best for temporary work even though I only have 50% hope to get hired and get S Pass/Work Permit Approval in that company. In any case, what I am doing now at this job is not wasting my time and I got to upgrade my skills and also do revision of my web development knowledge.

They only asked me to do simple web-server based application, that could easily be done with the basic things I have learnt from school. However, I want to challenge myself and I am trying to learn Jquery and Ajax and applying to my application as possible as I can. And by doing the project alone by myself, I really feel that development frameworks and editing tools are really necessary to make the process faster. In application development, we have to take care of many things - from UI design, the performance (speed, usability, accessibility, etc) and the server/storage side. With framework, many things will be handled along with some customizatons. I really need to learn to work with that as I am currently just doing every page from scartch and I have a long way to go from design to data validation and sql handle events.  :(

I really hope that I can get this job. Though salary is not high as my friends and the company is small, I think I can learn many things in this environment. But well, I can just pray hard since MOM approvals are so hard to get and difficult to apply. Fighting to myself and Good Luck to myself! :)

And on top of my top, I am so addited to these two variety shows - 2 Days 1 Night , Strong Heart and also following my favourite actor,singer and MC Lee Seung Gi News. Need more than 24 hours a day seriously!

Well, I will present you a very nice song  and end the post now. Be Happy and Smile! =)

ဘာရယ္မဟုတ္

စာမေရးျဖစ္တာ ၾကာသြားျပီမို႔ ေရးစရာမရွိတာ ေရးေနတာပါ။

ခုတေလာ ခံစားရတဲ့ ခံစားခ်က္ေတြ အေတြးေတြကို ေရးလိုက္ပါမယ္။

၁။ အလုပ္အကိုင္မရွိျခင္းသည္ လူေတြကို စိတ္ဓာတ္ပ်က္ျပား ဦးတည္ခ်က္ မဲ့ေစသည္။
၂။ တစ္သက္တာမွာ ေနာင္တအရဆံုး လုပ္ရပ္ႏွစ္ခု ရွိခဲ့သည္။ တစ္ခုမွာ တစ္ေယာက္ေသာသူကို နာက်င္စရာစကားမ်ားေျပာခဲ့ျခင္း ႏွင့္ တစ္ခုမွာ စကၤာပူသို႔လာရန္ ဆံုးျဖတ္ခ်က္ ခ်ျပီး ဆရာဝန္လိုင္းကို စြန္႔လႊတ္ခဲ့ျခင္းျဖစ္သည္။
၃။ ကိုးရီးယားကားေတြမွာ မင္းသမီးက သူ႔ကိုအရမ္းခ်စ္ အရမ္းဂရုစိုက္တဲ့သူကို အားနာေပမယ့္ ဘယ္လိုမွ ျပန္မခ်စ္ႏိုင္။ မင္းသမီးကို သိပ္ဂရုမစိုက္တဲ့ အဓိကမင္းသားကိုသာ တမ္းတမ္းစြဲျဖစ္ေနတဲ့ ဇာတ္ကားမ်ိဳးေတြ အရင္တုန္းက အရမ္းမုန္းခဲ့သည္။ ကိုယ္ခ်စ္ကိုမလိုခ်င္ သူခ်စ္ကိုသာရွာမယ္ဟု အျမဲေၾကြးေၾကာ္ခဲ့သည္။ But now... I think I can accept .. the fact that human minds are complicated and feelings can't be controlled by brain.
၄။ အနာဂတ္ကို စဥ္းစားသည့္အခါ အရမ္း မြန္းၾကပ္လာသည္။ မေရရာ မေသခ်ာတဲ့ ဘဝကို အလြန္စိတ္ပ်က္ မုန္းတီးမိသည္။
၅။ စကၤာပူ အစိုးရကို ေသေလာက္ေအာင္ စိတ္ပ်က္သည္။ အလြန္အမင္း မုန္းတီးမိသည္။ ေနာက္ထပ္ ဘယ္ေတာ့မွ ေျခမခ်ဖို႔လည္း ဆံုးျဖတ္မိသည္။
၇။ မားမားကို အရမ္း အရမ္း အရမ္း လြမ္းသည္။
၈။ ဘဝရဲ႔ အၾကမ္းအတမ္း အေကြ႔အေကာက္ေတြကို ရင္ဆုိင္ဖုိ႔ သတၱိရွိေအာင္ ပိုၾကိဳးစားရမည္။
၉။ ျမန္မာႏုိင္ငံ တိုးတက္ေရးလုပ္ငန္းေတြမွာ တစ္ဖက္တစ္ပန္းကေန ပါဝင္ကူညီေပးခ်င္သည္။
၁၀။ စာကို ပိုျပီး ၾကိဳးစားရမည္။

Back to Reality

  I have been trying to escape from this boring city life since my exam finished. Also in actual, I have done so by having a month-visit to my hometown Yangon and travelling to the places I have been wanting so much to go.
  I have gone to Kyait Htee Yoe (English Name- Golden Rock) and Chaung Thar Beach , and several places of Yangon. What made me more happy is to know there are friends who still care for me and our friendship haven't been changed. I miss those old times that we laughed and played together, studied together and got mad at each other for small things. Old classmates and childhood friends are people who can't be replaced. :)
  I didn't visit to any relatives as my mum doesn't like the idea. She has her own feelings and reasons though I feel sad for that. Why relatives from mum sides are so bad and everything is like fake. When I was young, I always thought my dad's relatives are not good because they didn't communicate with us much. But I think I get wrong idea. They are better than mum's side because at least they don't give trouble. Anyway I am not so close to them, and that is the best way I can avoid their troubles.
  I should post some photos from Yangon Visit. :) Here they come!

Shwe Dagon Pagoda on my first day at Yangon (24.2.2012)

At Poe Kalar Island, Chaung Thar Beach 

Every moment in Chaung Thar is very very nice. With fresh air and nice scenery, I really enjoyed it. Besides I love seafood cooked by villagers too! :)

At Kyout Tann Yay Lal Pagoda - (18.3.2012)  with my best friend's family help 

At Kyite Htee Yoe Pagoda (19.3.2012) with again with my another friend's family

At Airport (though this is not a final parting, I felt kinda sad to leave my parents again ) 

So that's all for now.. Nite!

Pride

Even though I am not a proud person, I have my own pride that I value. I have pride on my education and on my being a girl.
There are things that we shouldn't do even though we want to do badly as it will affect our pride. Like if a girl like a boy, she cannot show her feelings towards him first. Confession needs lots of courage for a girl. And my friend says don't show all of your true and innocent feelings to the person you love most as they won't value them if you show much. I think that's quite true. People will step on you if you are being too nice. :)
So, I am now trying to hide my feelings for the sake of my pride. But I am so tired of doing so too. :( 

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Early morning on my way to school, I just snapped a small leaf for fun, but it happened that I got two couple leaves. Blame myself for always thinking far beyond and I suddenly become missing the things I should not miss.. Looking at the two leaves and thinking they might love each other so much to follow each other, I am thinking of 'you and me'. It just made me feel blue..

So meanwhile,  I am trying to comfort myself with Aung La songs.. for his songs are always similar like my feelings.. 

 All time favourite songs

A quite good and surprising day :)

I am really in good mood right now. I can't express enough of my feeling. :)

During my class time, I am quite playful today and slacking but I think my faci won't mind it because he knows I can solve today's problem well. :D (like no need to check :P )
And I had a great time talking with my particular nice team mate. :)

First, my final year project evaluation is over and the work load that is stressing me is finally turned to ashes :P . It went well I supposed. After that, we took several happy pictures and then we had a nice dinner! :)

Secondly, I saw my brother's pictures from Yangon trip and it just makes me happy to see my parents picture (couple couple picture! :D )

Thirdly, my mum called me and promised me that she would find an excuse for me to come back to Yangon.. heeehee nothing would make me happier than her promise.. for I am dying to go back to Yangon!

And last , but not least I got surprising grades in class despite me being slacking and playful in the classes.. I think facis are quite generous these dayss.. hee hee.. Here is the prove. Even though I didn't write RJ, I luckily got A ;)

Okie.. Time to sleep with happy feelingsss ^_^ Good Night!

The best ever Friday 13 For Myanmar

Today is really one of the best day of my life, and can also be said one of the happiest day for Myanmar Citizens. :)

Majority of myanmar Political Prisoners has been freed by the new Government. Though I don't know much of them, there are few persons that I really respect such as U Khin Nyunt, Ko Nay Phone Latt, Ko Min Ko Naing, Ma Su Su Nwe and some I cannot remember the name. I almost cried when I heard this news because I was too happy. 

But honestly, I still don't have much faith in the new Government as majority are comprised of military people, especially U Thein Sein. I welcome their changing behaviours and the good deeds they are doing to bring up the country image, but I am also expecting the worst. But if all these changes are really real good intentions made by them, then I wish the best for their future and Myanmar Future.

Well, though I am not a political person, I just want to say "Thank you, President U Thein Sein for your kindness to free imprisoned politicians and give us hope to see Myanmar shining  amongst all other countries" :)